Believe in

[Own lyric]

So much to believe in
I was lost in time
Everything i needed
I feel in your eyes
Always tought of keeping
Your heart next to mine
But now that seems so far away
Don't know how love could leave Without a trace
Where do silent hearts go
Where does my heart beat now
Where is the sound
That only echoes through the night

I can't live without
Without feeling it inside
Without feeling you inside
Where do all the lonely hearts go
Candle in the water
Drifting helplessly
Hiding from the thunder
Come and rescue me
Driven by hunger
Of the endless dream
Im searching for your hand that i can hold
Im reaching for your arms that let me know

1st time i saw your face

[Own lyric]

The first time ever i saw your face
I thought the sun rose in your eyes
And the moon and stars were the gifts you gave
To the dark and the empty skies,my love

The first time ever I kissed your mouth
I felt the earth, moon in my hand
Like the trembling heart of a captive bird
That was there at my command,my love

The first time ever I lay with you
And felt your heart so close to mine

To love you more

[Own lyric]

Take you back in my arms
Need you like i did before
Touch you once again
And remember when
There was no one that i wanted more
Don't go you know you will break my heart
He won't love you like I will
Im the one who will always stay for you
When you walks away
And you know I will be standing here still
I will be waiting for you
Here inside my heart
Im the one who wants to love you more
You will see what i can give and sacrifice for you
Everything you need
Let me be the one to love you more
See me as if you never knew
Hold me tight so you can't let go
Just believe in me
I will make you see
All the things that your heart needs to know
And some way all the love that we had can be saved
Whatever it takes also i will find a way

My heart goes on

[Own lyric]

Every night in my dreams
I see you
I feel you
That is how i know you had go on
Far across the distance and spaces between us
You have come to show you go on

Near,far,wherever you are
I believe that the heart does go on
Once more,you opened the door
And you are here in my heart
And my heart will go on

Love can touch us one time
And last for a lifetime
And never let go utill im gone
Love was when i loved you
One true time i hold you,
In my life i will always go on

When you are here,there is nothing i fear
When you are away,there is lot thing i feel fear and unsecure
I will stay,forever in this way
You are safe in my heart
Im secure to have you in my heart

A new day

[Own lyric]

A new day...
I was waiting for so long
For a miracle to come
Everyone told me to be strong
Hold on and don't shed a tear
Through the darkness and good times
I knew i must make it through
And the world thought i had it all
But i was still here waiting for you

I see a light in the sky
It is almost blinding me
I can't believe
I have been touched by an angel with love
Let the rain come down and wash away my tears
Let it fill my soul and drown my fears
Let it shatter the walls for a new

Where it was dark now there is light
Where there was pain now there is joy
Where there was weakness,i found my strength
All in the eyes of a man

I love you.Goodbye

[Own lyric]

Wish i could be the one
The one who could give you love
The kind of love you really need
Wish I could say to you

That i will always stay with you
But babe that is not me now anymore

Oh I could say that i will be all you need
I know i had only hurt you before
I know i had only make you cry before
Im not the one you are needing anymore
I love you so i had to say goodbye

I hope someday you can
Find some way to understand
Im only doing this just for you
I don't really want go from you

But deep in my heart i know
This is the kindest thing to do
You will find someone who will be the one that i could never be
Who will give you something better
Than the love you will find with me

Leaving someone when you love someone
Is the hardest thing to do
When you love someone as much as i love you

Oh I don't want to leave you
Babe it tears me up inside all the time

Babe it is never going to work out
I love you forever ever

If

[Own lyric]

If i should stay
Well...I would only be in your way
And so i will go and yet i know
That i will think of you each step of my way
And i will always love you
Bitter sweet memories
That is all i have and all im taking with me
Good-bye...Please don't cry
Cause we both know that im not what you need
And i will always love you
And i hope life will treat you kind
And i hope that you have all
That you ever dreamed of
God...I do wish you joy
God...I do wish you happiness
But above all this
I wish you love
I love you
I will always love you
I will always always love you
And I will always love you

When i saw you

[Own lyric]

Ah baby
When i see you walking down the street
I get so shaky and i feel so weak
I tell my eyes look the other way
But they don't listen to a word i say
And i go to pieces and i want to hide
Go to pieces and i almost die
Everytime my baby passes by

I tell my arms to hold someone new
Another love that will be true
But they don't listen,they don't seem to care
They reach for her but she's not there
And i go to pieces and i want to hide
Go to pieces and i almost die
Everytime my baby passes by

I remember what you said
When you said goodbye baby
We will meet again soon may be
But until we do all my best to you
Im so lonely i think about you only
I go to pieces we used to go
But i know you will never show
You hurt me so much inside
How i hope you are satisfied
And i go to pieces and i want to hide
Go to pieces and i almost die
Everytime my baby passes by

Just a fantasy

[Own lyric]

Just a fantasy
I know i can hide from myself this time now
I know i have got to face it up somehow
You prayed that i could make it through
cause you know i have been feeling blue
There is no way i could have you back again

There is so much i wish i could say to you,vincy
There is so much i wish i could do for you,vincy
But i know you want me know me more
cause you have walked out of my door
I know i will never get over your love

I guess our love was just a fantasy
I guess our love was never meant to be
You said im not the one for you
I can't make all your dreams come true
I have to let you go no matter how
I have to let you go no matter how

For my broken heart

[Own lyric]

There were no angry words at all
As we carried memories down the mind
Delete one by one from our mind
Nothing much for us to say
One last goodbye and you walk away
I watched your shadow
As it faded from my sight
I couldn't face the night in that lonely bed
So i laid down on the couch instead
Last night i prayed the lord my soul to keep
Then i cried myself to sleep
So sure life wouldn't go on without you
But this sun is blinding me
As it wakes me from the dark
I guess the world didn't stop
For my broken heart
Clock still ticking and life goes on
Radio still plays a song
As i try to put my scattered thoughts in place
And it takes all the strength i have got
To stumble to the coffee pot
The first many lonely mornings
I have got to face
You ask to see if im ok
Look out the window and i just say
I forever only will love you
Only you will be last im my heart
You will be my whole world

In love with you

[Own lyric]

In love with you
Just a gentle whisper
Told me that you had gone
Leaving only memories where did we go wrong
I couldn't find the words then
So let me say them now
lm still in love with you
Tell me that you love me
Tell me that you care me
Tell me that you need me
I will be there
I will be there waiting
I will always love you
I will always stay true
There is no one who loves you like i do
Come to me now
I will never leave you
I will stay here with you
Through the good and bad i will stand true
Im in love with you
Now we had here togather yesterday has past
Life is just beginning close to you at last
And i promise to you
I will always be there
I give my all to you
Living life without you
Is more than i can bear
Hold me close forever
I will be there
I will be there for you
I will always loce you
I will always stay true
This i promise i will never leave
I will stay here with you

Im Ajinomoto

Why i call me as Ajinomoto?
How you feel about Ajinomoto?
For me...
It nice at 1st
To make dishes taste good
But not good to take more
Somemore will bad to health
Somemore after eat will feel so thirsty
Am i right?
So it is also same with my life and also my relationship
At 1st you will found im good
And also taste good
But will never think to have more and long time
Will be happy and sweet with me just for short moment
Will never ever think to be with me forever ever
So after feel thirsty
You will go look for water and any other solution
That moment i will be alone again
And i must be suffer for myself all again

Hell or Heaven

When the day you ask to break with me
After i ask you for second chance...
You say you don't want to suffer yourself by walk in hell again
So i feel you really so happy with him
So i feel he treat you more then what i do for you
So i feel you found your heaven
But now do you still think with me is in hell and with him is in heaven?
You really want to hold for this suffering relationship?
While he keep give you all the lame excuse
While he dare to lie you for everything
You still want to believe n forgive him?
Why you can be so love and care him so much compared to me
Even if i reply your message because im not free or exercise also you will scold me
Ok...Is my wrong due don't accompany and make you feel lonely
Now he ignore you most of time
Even you call also manage to talk for 1-2minute?
Why you can be so tolerate with him?
Why you don't scold him at all while hide all in your heart?
Why you hold yourself like that while you know you don't like to being ignore...
I know you don't like i go out much
So i choose to stay back in room
Why you ever control him at all?
Is because im not important in your heart?
Is because you feel you can get care and love without give in much
Is because i love and care you more than what you did to me?
I love and care you because i love and care you
I love and care you because i want you to be happy
I love and care you because i want you to feel fantasy in your reality
Do you ever ever understand why i can do so much for you
Do you know why i wish to care and protect you from time to time?
Do you know how important of you to me?
Do you ever think?
Do you ever feel?
You say you now work hard to maintain your new relationship
Why you want to give up a stable relationship
Why you want to give up a lovely relationship
Why you want to give up a sweet relationship
And go for a uncertain relationship
Do you know how hurt im now
Do you know how suffer im now
Do you know how worry im now
After i know how the guy treat you
Do you think how i feel?
Do you know im so hurt sad and guilty and regret now?
Hurt and sad is because saw you be hurt by the guy
Guilty is because why i must let you go
Regret is because why i don't treat you more good

Im happy because you tell me you are happy to be with me now compared to him
But also i sad because just for now but not in future too
And also because he treat you so bad also you willing to stay with him
I really don't understand
Girl normaly prefer guy love and care them more than they did
Because can make them feel secure and also important to guy
Because girl wish the feel being pampered and care
While guy can't accept to love a girl if they not really love the girl
Because guy must be responsibility for all the thing they had
Because guy have the responsibility to carry whole family

But now you love and care him more than he did
And he like don't love and care you at all
Even feel don't want to be with you and talk with you
If he really love and care you
Sure he happy to talk with you
Enjoy every single moment to talk with you
That why i call you all the time
Not because i scared to be lonely
Not because i scared you to be lonely
But is i feel talking with you is the most happy and sweet moment
Even just joke also i feel so sweet in my heart
Do you understand

You always look for a romance relationship
But i feel our relationship really sweet and romance even we always not be with others
I feel our relationship much better the relationship you have now?
This is what you call heaven?
This is what you call romance relationship
This is what relationship you looking forward for your life
You tell me that the more you forgive me the more i don't care and understand you
Don't you feel you also same with him
Don't you feel he don't care and understand you too
1st time being people girlfriend is not the same to 1st time being people boyfriend
Because guy must care and be good to girlfriend
Even not used to but also will work hard
With you also consider 1st time for me
1st time have long distance relationship
1st time so love and care a girl
Don't you feel i really work hard to get used and maintain it
But i don't think you feel he is work hard to get used to
If not also you won't be so hurt and sad...

The time i msn you yesterday
I totally can feel there is something happen to you even you keep say nothing happen there
You please don't lie me anymore
I know you too well
You totally cant hide anything from me even i can't see from here
Because i notice every single thing of you
Because i care you
I don't like to show my love and care by word
That why i don't talk much sweet word to you
That why i don't know how to pujuk when you are sad
Because i show you my love and care by my action
This is more real compared to word
Word can be lie can be cheat
But action will never cheat nor lie
Because if i don't really care and love you
I will never use my time and energy on you
Because if i don't really care and love you
I will never ever keep give in my love and care to you
Because if i don't care and love you
I will never ever be patience and advice you
Because if i don't care and love you
I will never ever sacrifice so much for you

You give up something not bad for a bad thing now
Don't you feel silly
I really don't wish to see you get hurt and regret later
I don't wish you to give in so much to get nothing
This is nothing you can do
Relationship must work hard by both
Just like us
We also face lot of challenge include your parent
But we both work hard to prove
I got put in effort to prove you that you are not choosing the wrong guy

Do you know im so sad yesterday after know you cry and sad
Im not feeling not well
But is because i also very sad
I wish to scream and cry too
But i cant...
I must control myself
I wish to scold you
I wish you to be wake up and realise what is actually good for you
I wish to care you
I wish to protect you
I don't want you get any hurt
You not deserve for that
Do you know
Do you know you are your family babe
Do you know you are my babe
Do you know we so worry and care and love you
Do you know we are the one who can hurt the most when you are hurt and sad

Appreciate someone you love

有些人一直没机会见，等有机会见了，却又犹豫了，相见不如不见
Someone have no chance to meet,when there is chance but still thinking much.So better don't meet
有些事一直没机会做，等有机会了，却不想再做了
Something have no chance to do,when there is chance but don't plan to do anymore
有些话埋藏在心中好久，没机会说，等有机会说的时候，却说不出口了
Someword hide in heart long time but no chance to say.When chance come but don't wish to say anymore
有些爱一直没机会爱，等有机会了，已经不爱了
Somelove can't get to love,when is time but already no more love

有些人很多机会相见的，却总找借口推脱，想见的时候已经没机会了
Someone have many chance to meet but keep look for excuse.When wish to meet already no more chance
有些话有很多机会说的，却想着以后再说，要说的时候，已经没机会了
Someword have many chance to say but keep delay the time to say.When wish to say already no more chance
有些事有很多机会做的，却一天一天推迟，想做的时候却发现没机会了
Something have many chance to do but delay days by days.Found there is no more chance when think to do
有些爱给了你很多机会，却不在意没在乎，想重视的时候已经没机会爱了
Somelove give you lot chance but you never care.When you want to care already no more chance to love

人生有时候，总是很讽刺
Life sometimes is really ridiculous
一转身可能就是一世。说好永远的，不知怎么就散了
Say want to be forever ever and never seperate but don't know why still will breakup
最后自己想来想去竟然也搞不清当初是什么原因分开彼此的
At last still can't understand why going to breakup after think lot and long time
然后，你忽然醒悟，感情原来是这么脆弱的
After that you finally wake up and realise love is so fragile
经得起风雨，却经不起平凡；风雨同船，天晴便各自散了
Can win all the challenge but can't win the simple way.Togather when got trouble and separate when feel is ok

也许只是赌气，也许只是因为小小的事
Maybe just because arguing or maybe just for little tiny thing
幻想着和好的甜蜜，或重逢时的拥抱，那个时候会是边流泪边捶打对方，还傻笑着
Dream the sweet moment when back togather and hug again.Will keep cry and hit each other while having silly smile togather
该是多美的画面
It is such a wonderful dream
没想到的是，一别竟是一辈子了
But never think after breakup and it already whole life breakup

So empty

My heart feel so empty
Make me feel so cold
I can't get anymore warm now
I can't feel anymore warm now
I also don't know what i can do
I just know you are the only one make my heart full and warm

Been long time don't get any news from you
Are you still ok there...??
Really so miss you
Really so love you
I more love you after i lose you
I more miss you after i lose you
I more appreciate you after i lose you

After this few day..
I found im now no longer important in your heart
No matter how also you won't come to me
No matter how also you won't care me
No matter how also you won't love me
I really feel so hurt and sad...

Promise me that you must stay more happy than me
Promise me that you must stay more xinfu than me
Promise me that you must be more good than me

No matter how sad or hurt im
Also i wish you can stay better than me
Because you deserve to get a better thing than me
Because im a worst guy
Not deserve to get any good thing at all

Tired and Pain

So so tired now...
So so pain now...
Because yester don't sleep good at all
Not just because dream of you
But also because i have no place to sleep
Have to sit there and sleep
So im now tired and pain
Flu still the same...
After take medicine also the same
Suffering
Tissue all over the place...
Not just that but also blood
Mess up my place...
Feel my head so heavy and dizzy too
But what i can do...
Also i must take care myself here
Since already have nobody wish to care and love me anymore
The care and love i wish to get from now already can't get

Just now saw my senior babe fly over here to see him
Im so envy
They both really so sweet and happy
Im so jealous
Why i can't have
Why?Why?Why?
Let me know please
I also have sweet and happy moment with the one i do care and love the most before
I feel so happy when with you
I feel i win the whole world after be with you
I feel im the most lucky guy in the world after be with you
But now all already become past
Now all already fade away
No more sweet and happy in my heart and world anymore
Lose you just like i had lost my life
Lose you just like i had lost my battle
Lose you just like i had lost my world
But what still i can do?
All the thing we have before just become memory now
I want to have sweet and memory moment again be with you
But you already put me away
And put down all the memory we have togather
I now no more can't make you laugh and smile anymore
Even myself also don't how to laugh and smile
Even myself also don't know what is sweet and happy anymore

What wrong with our love

We don't meet since the day you left me
You just say sorry sorry and sorry to me
Actually im the one who should say sorry
Because i really don't wish to say goodbye to you

If can't give a proper reason for why you left me
But just left me thousand of Question Mark
Or just some excuse
I will be so hurt in the dark of night

After off the light in the night
You are just be stranger for me
Our sweet and happy moment fade away

Please give me the actual reason
If what make you be so cruel to left me alone without any turning back
Im now no longer your sweet heart
Im now no longer your whole world
Im now no longer your everything

What wrong with our love?Who can let me know
What wrong i had did to you
Since i do care and love you the most
You really can put down all of our sweet and happy moment
Why must punish me like this
Care and love someone i treassure also wrong
Please tell me the ending

Just for you Vincy-Wish to apologise to you

If i had accidentally hurt you
Please don't be so sad
Because i really don't mean it
Sorry because make you be hurt

Since we already love each other long time
Can't just breakup like that
Because our love comes not easy
So hard only we know each other
Even not in special way
Even not in romantic way
We had meet a lot of challenge then only we can be togather
After be togather also a lot of problem we had face
But also we manage to settle and make our relationship tough
I really don't want to give up

Babe So sorry
Babe Please don sad
I still Very loving you Missing you
Please don't left me away The day without you by myside really lonely and empty

Babe Please togather
Babe Please don't cry
I still very care you Thinking of you
My heart My soul My life My world
Forever just belongs to you only

Please forgive me this time
I really really so miss you
No matter how far you left me
Also i will keep waiting for you

Oh babe I know you still love me
Please come back my lover
Please come back my dear vincy

Too painful

I can't write anymore
It is too painful
It is really too painful for me

Im so sorry to you
I never meant to hurt you so much
Im so sorry to you babe,vincy
Please forgive me...
For i will never going to forgive myself as long as you won't forgive me

I know i had treat you so bad and cruel
Im really so regret and so guilty to you

I never know my care and love to you will make you be so suffer and tired
I know finally know who im
I don't want to be who im
But i want to be your man
Want to be the one you want me to be
I do very love and miss you here

I can't stop myself from keep thinking of you
I keep thinking you for every single second i have in my life

No matter how also you play the most important role in my life
No matter how also you play the most important role in my world

Gosh...

Im so tired now...
And start to have serious flu
Suffering now
Tissue on hand and table
Messy table now...
Feel so sleepy after take medicine
But i cant sleep
No place for me to sleep
My bed now sleep by my friend
What to do...
Only can sit there and doing nothing and rest
Hope morning come fast
Then im relief
Just don't know when my flu will recover
Due flu need to rest more after take medicine
But now i already eat but can't rest
Gosh...

Gosh...

Im so tired now...
And start to have serious flu
Suffering now
Tissue on hand and table
Messy table now...
Feel so sleepy after take medicine
But i cant sleep
No place for me to sleep
My bed now sleep by my friend
What to do...
Only can sit there and doing nothing and rest
Hope morning come fast
Then im relief
Just don't know when my flu will recover
Due flu need to rest more after take medicine
But now i already eat but can't rest
Gosh...

Goodbye my love

I feel im so bad for my decision
I feel so regret and guilty now
I really don't wish to take this action
But i feel it is good for you
Even im so hurt and suffer for my decision
But seems you be ok there
Also i will be ok and happy
I just wish you be happy all the time
I will keep pray for your safe+happy+luck
Whatever of your thing also i wish to know...
But i know the more i care
The more you will be suffer
Sorry for all the thing
Be good alone there yourself
Take care yourself
I will still miss you all the time
Even we already maybe have no more chance to meet anymore in future
Because for me you are too important
So what i do also for your good
I don't want you be hurt and suffer anymore
You had drop lot of tears because of me
Is more than enough
So now you now no more drop any tears because of me anymore
Not worth for you to do all the thing
Bye my beloved babe vincy

Everything in the world maybe change

Everything in the world maybe change
The only thing will never ever change is my heart
The care and love to you will never ever change
My feeling on you will never ever change
Even you maybe change a lot
Even you maybe change your love and care on me
Also won't change anything of me
But is because of you
I will change myself to be a better man
I will change myself to be your perfect guy
I will change myself to be your perfect prince
Nomatter how also i will prove you my heart will only belong to you vincy
Im 100% loyal to our love
Im 100% loyal to you
Because i really only love you one in the world
For me you are always the brighter star in the world
For me you are always the special girl in the world
For me you are always 100% perfect girl in the world
For me you are my world
For me you are my life
For me you are my dream
Everything also because of you
I love and miss you forever ever

Im who im...

Abstract thoughts
Loves reality and abstract
Intelligent and clever
Changing personality
Attractive
Sexy
Temperamental
Quiet
Shy
Humble
Honest
Loyal
Determined to reach goals
Loves freedom
Rebellious when restricted
Loves aggressiveness
Too sensitive and easily hurt
Gets angry really easily but does not show it
Dislike unnecessary things
Loves making friends but rarely shows it
Daring and stubborn
Ambitious
Realizing dreams and hopes
Sharp
Loves entertainment and leisure
Romantic on the inside not outside
Superstitious and ludicrous
Spendthrift
Tries to learn to show emotions

Don't leave someone you love for someone you like

Please don't ever ever leave the one you love for the one you like
Because it will bring lot guitiness and regret in your future
So i will never ever give up you babe
Because i love you
I won't look for other because i will never ever love anyone anymore
Because i will only like but not love

Sorry because now i choose to left you life
Not because i change my heart
Not because i love another one
But is myself don't know how to face myself anymore
Until now im still so confuse...
Sorry
Im not purposely to hurt you anymore
Promise me to take care yourself there
Remember that you already got gastric
Please don't take anymore risk to your stomach
Ok?
Everything will be ok...
Just let both have more time and space
I will prove you one day if im still have time and chance
Get self ready for your study
Now try to study some related with your course
And start to get more rest
Because you will be very tired once you start to study
Will really worry you there
Try to speak out your feeling
Try to blogging more to express yourself
Don't stress yourself anymore
Please don't make people who care and love you worry

180309

180309
Today i a little bit lose control of my emotion
Im so sorry because i break my promise
I already promise someone to change
And i already change some
But today im so tension and pressure when do my physic experiment
Keep meet failure and cant even settle the experiment
Each of the reading i get also like no right
I keep change and change
Make me so frustrated
Even i don't do anything bad...
But in deep of my heart
I know i already do wrong...
I should be more patient
I shouldn't be so easy to get lose control
I can't give up my promise to the girl i love and care
Because she expect me to be good
I know she care me so ask me to change
I will be my best to control myself

My heart

Death not the most scary thing
Death not the most hurt thing
Because every will be death one day
Just soon or later
Hurt by someone you trust and love the most is the scary thing
Betray by someone you trust and love the most is the scary thing
Hurt or betray by someone you love and trust the most is the worst thing
Because is so hard to get someone you do love and care in your life
Just can get once in your life
Maximum also two time in your life
Somemore is the one you trust the most
The pain is really hurt and painful
The wound in heart and mind will never recover
Nomatter how also will never recover
Can you imagine your heart as glass?
How if there is some crack on it?
Will it be ok?
No....
It will forever be there
It will never be ok...
Even choose to forget and forgive
The crack will forever be there
The crack forever so pain and obvious all the time
How many time you say sorry or do what also will never recover it
My heart got 3 crack now
The last one i get is the worst one...
Because it is the relationship i treassure and care the most
And also is the longest relationship i have
It is my last relationship
Even you at last still never accept me back
Also i won't have any other babe anymore
But i know im the only son at home
Sure i have the responsibility to marry
But im sure that she will never ever replace you in my heart
Because you,vincy forever ever is the only wife kelvin want to have
Only you deserve for my heart
Only you worth for me to be with for my entire life
Even need me to sacrifice whatever i have include my life also i will say you are worth
Nomatter how suffer i need to wait
Nomatter how long time i need to wait
Nomatter how hurt i need to wait
Nomatter what challenge you want me to show you also i will make it for you
Only one reason
Because i love you not because i like you
Nothing is as important as you
Even my heart now already death
Even my heart now break into pieces
But i will be alright once you back to me
Because is you who enlight my world
Because is you who enlight my life
Because is you who bring me out from sadness
Because my heart forever ever belong to you only

I wish now i still can care and love you
But i know is meaningless now
But i know already too late now
Is too late for me to realise
Is too late for me to wakeup
Is too late for me to change myself

My characteristic

2月15日
金星?魔鬼
代表人物：伽利略
充满想像力和创造力
Full of imagination and creativity
非常感性和理想主义
Very sensibility and idealistic
能够把理想付诸实现
Able to make dream come true
个性很有魅力
Charm personality
吸引别人的追求和崇拜
Attract people pursue and adoration
优点是感情丰富
Sentimental
优点是充满好奇心
Curious
优点是想像力
Imagination
优点是喜欢接受各种挑战
Love to face all the challenge
缺点是太敏感
Too sensitive
缺点是太情绪化
Too emotional
缺点是过度放纵自已
Too get loose ownself
缺点是缺乏耐心
Lack of patient

170309

Im really upset..
I still can't face you already left me be with the others
I really can't hold myself to keep thinking of you
Because im still very love you
I keep thinking of you 24hour
Really can't stop myself from thinking of you
But i know how i miss you
But i know how i care you
But i know how i love you
Also you will never respond
You won't feel anything at all
You will just say don't know
You will just say don't ask you
You will just say let god decide
You will just say let it be natural
You know each time you be like this also i feel so hurt and suffer?
Why i can't be the one i love
While the one i don't like keep come to me
Somemore you ask why i don't accept
You know your word really hurt me
While you know i just love you one for my entire life
Why you still ask me to get others?
You think i will be happy with other
You think i will forget all the thing after with other
You are wrong
You are totally wrong
You still not yet understand how i feel
You still not yet understand who im
I already told you im a loyal person
Hard for me to love and trust someone
But once i love and trust
I will be loyal
And will never change
Do you understand
Do you know the word loyal?
I really trust you will be loyal to me forever
But the fact show me totally make me down
Im so hurt for all the thing
You know you really hurt me so deep?
But i forgive and forget
Because i know i love you
If i blame you
I will feel more suffer and you will never feel better
Do you understand all these?
Im now really don't want to think much
I try to use my study to numb myself
I try to drink lot everyday to numb myself
I wish i can get drunk and never wake up to face you and the fact anymore
Until now my heart still bleeding
Until now my heart still so painful

God...
Please take me away from the world
Since you don't give me any chance to be with vincy anymore
Please take me away
I don't want to be so suffer here alone anymore

Do you know how i feel?

Im so damn upset
I feel so suffer and suffer
I really so envy your ex...
Even at last still break with you
But at least you both can last longer than our
I thought we can be togather forever
Because the time we be togather really sweet
Because you also very love and care me
But how come our love just can last 11month
But how come you can just drop our love like that
But how come you can be with him
But how come you can love two in one time
I really not understand
Why you can be loyal to your ex
Why you can't be fair and loyal to me
Im now totally so disappointed
I really don't know what else i still can do for you anymore
I always so love and care you
Even you ask to break and with him also i still love and care you
My feeling on you never change
I know im bad temper
But everyone also got its weakness
You ask me not to expect everyone is perfect
But don't you feel you are also expect me as 100%?
Im just an ordinary guy who got my own feeling and trouble
I also need people to care me
Even you treat me cold
Even you ignore me
Even you scold me
Do i angry
Do i blame you
Because i know you got your own problem
So i choose to forget and forgive
You had hurt me many time also i never angry
I know i will scold you
But only you will realise
You think i not hurt to scold you?
If i don't care you
Why must i waste energy to talk so much
Why must i be so angry
Why must i be so fierce
Even i like control you a lot
But at least you are ok there
At least you don't have gastric
Now after you with him
You get gastric
You think just you pain and suffer
You are totally wrong
Im also pain and suffer due to your problem
If i don't care you
Why i will feel so
Why you can't feel our good while you keep look for our bad
Why you keep blame on people bad while you also never think about your own problem and attitude
Do you know i will never scold people for no reason
Sure you had did something wrong only i will scold
Maybe is your action
Maybe is your attitude
Maybe is your word
Maybe is your way to treat people
You will blame me for ignore you
You will blame me for left you alone
You will angry me for all small thing
But when you ignore me
But when you left me alone
Do you know how i will feel?
Do i angry and ignore you?
You don't like to stay alone
You don't like to be lonely
I also the same with you
I also don't like to be alone
I also don't like to be lonely
But i know you are busy and tired
So i just wait here quietly
Even you are not busy but watch TV
I also forgive
I let you to relax
But why you must angry me when im busy
I know i promise to have more time with you
I really work hard to arrange my work and time
But sometime i really can't finish
I need more time to rush my thing
That why i left you alone
But nomatter how also i will sms let you know
But you still can't forgive me
Even i call you but i don't you are nap
You scold me for disturbing you
But also because im worry you
You always keep quiet whole day
Each time must wait until night time only will find me
Do you know how i feel?
When you wake me up from sleep or nap
Do i angry or scold you?
But i wish to know what wrong with you
I wish to care you more
I wish to accompany you
Sometime you sms me in midnight
Nomatter how tired im also will wakeup and accompany you until you sleep
Even im in sick and rest also i wakeup to accompany you
Do you know how care im to you?
But you still will say i don't care about your feeling
Do you think do you care about my feeling as well?
I keep be patient with your attitude
Because i know you don't mean for what you did
I know you do so sure got your own problem
Even you don't let me know
But i will still know from the way you act and say
I prefer you scold me also i don't want you keep in your heart
I know after you scold you will feel better
I just wish you be happy there
So how hurt im also ok
Because im guy
Got responsibility to make you be happy
Got responsibility to care you more
Because im the one who can you count on
Because im the one who can let you depend
I don't care to get tired to care you
I just care i can't care you more
I just care i can't take care you more
I just care i can't protect you
I really work hard to maintain our relationship
I know is very hard to maintain since is long distance relationship
I know you will be very suffer and lonely over there
I understand how your feel
Because im also same with you over here
Somemore family not by myside
I even feel more suffer here
I prefer to stay at home instead follow my friend out
Because i don't want make you worry
Because i don't want to know any other girls
I don't let myself any chance to make myself change
I just wish to be loyal to you forever
Because i love you
Because i know you been hurt before
Because i know how the feel
I experience before
I been cheated and betray by my ex as well
I know how pain and hurt
So i promise not to let you be hurt
So i must care and love you more
I have lot responsibility on you when you choose to be my babe
Because i don't want make you feel regret
Because i don't want make you feel you choose the wrong guy
I really hope im your Mr Right forever

To you vincy

Im sorry because i break my promise and drink a lot
Sorry vincy

16March

160308
Is the most happy day i ever have in my life
You know why?
Because today you agreed to be my babe
Because today you agreed to be my beloved
But due to my own problem
But due to my own problem
Make me lose chance to keep be with you anymore
But i still very love and care you no matter what going to happen to us
160309
Is the worst day i ever have in my life
You know why?
Because today we already breakup
Because i can't celebrate our 1st year anniversary togather
Because i can't have chance to love and care you anymore
Im so sorry to you due to what had happen to us
Im so sorry because im so useless because i can't even manage and hold a relationship that i care the most
Im so sorry because im so useless because i can't even manage and hold a relationship that i love the most
Im so sorry because im so useless because i can't even manage and hold a relationship that i treassure the most
I really still very love you no matter how
Now i really so disappointed after what we talk yesterday
You told me he treat you not bad
You told me he never rise his voice on you
You told me you already love him as much as you love me before
Im now totally no more dream for me to move forward
Im now totally disappoited with my life
Im now totally disappoited with my love
Im now don't want easy to trust anybody more else
Im now don't want easy to trust any love more else
Because for me you are everything
You forever important in my heart
You forever my babe in my heart
Nobody else will ever ever have chance to replace your position
Never Never Never
My love and care to you i will forever in my heart
My love and care to you i will forever in my mind
This is because i do really love and care you
I won't love and care any others for rest of my life

Im now so desperate
Im now so upset
Im now so down
Im now so hurt
Im now so sad
Im now so disappointed
Im now choose to drunk myself
I never get drunk before
But today i drink a lot of beer untill drunk
I really don't wish to think much anymore
Because the more i think you
The more i will be hurt
Because the more i love you
You will never know
Because the more i care you
You will never feel
Not for any reason
Because you already give up me
Because you already put me down
Because you already don't care our love anymore
Because you already don't love me anymore
Because you already don't care me anymore

Today is our 1st year anniversay
I keep stick to my plan to give you present
Because i already think to give you this right after your birthday
Because i wish to make you happy there
Because it is a meaningful present even just a normal thing
I choose to give you a bear to your office
I named it as Ahlui
Because i gave you one Ahzai before
You know why i choose to name Ahzai and Ahlui
You know why i want to give you Ahlui
Because Ahzai+Ahlui=GOOD
女+子=好
I hope our relationship forever ever good
I hope our relationship forever ever sweet
I really wish to be with you forever ever
The another reason i named them as Ahzai and Ahlui
Because i wish to have a complete family with you
Because i wish to have a son and daughter with you
You know i don't like to have kid
But you had change my mind
I really wish to have two kids with you after we marry
I know you love kids also
Just don't want to have more
So i change myself
Try to have more time with baby
Try to have more time with kid
I feel so relax and happy with them

Im happy because you like Ahlui
Im happy because you appreciate it
But im sorry
Because i know you mother sure will nag and scold you for the present again
Hope Ahzai and Ahlui can accompany mummy more
Hope Ahzai and Ahlui can care mummy more
Hope Ahzai and Ahlui can love mummy more
Because they know daddy already not with mummy
Because they know they are assign by daddy to keep be good to mummy
Because they know daddy still very love and care mummy
Because they know daddy still wish to be with mummy again
Not just for short while but is forever ever
Just let our children to be with you forever ever
I will be ok to be single and alone here
Im really ok...
Even how i feel also no need you worry
You just promise me to be good there
You just promise me to take care there
All of that already more than enough
I really will be fine even my heart always be with you

You message me when your break time
Im have class that moment
Im so upset that moment
I really wish to scream
But i know i must control my emotion
Nomatter how suffer and sad also i must control
Nomatter how suffer and sad also i can't drop any single of my tears anymore
Because i already promise you before
But im still message you back in normal
I just wish to pretend stong and brave
I really don't want to suffer you anymore
I really don't want to hurt you anymore
I really don't want you so worry me anymore
I really don't want you so care me anymore
No need to thanks me
Because all is is my suprise to you
Because i just want you to be happy

I feel it is so meaningless for me give you Ahlui
But you say it is still meaningful for you because you take it as our 1st year anniversary present
Not your wrong to give up our love so easy
Because i really not a good guy
Never treat you good
Never care your feeling
Even im love and care you
But i don't know how to maintain our love
Im just a useless and lousy guy
I never blame you for everything
I really don't angry and blame you
You know i will never do so to you nomatter what you do to me
Not your fault to change your heart to love him
I know all is my wrong because i don't treat you as good as he did to you
Somemore is i who encourage you to go out more with your friends
Because i know you are so lonely there to be alone
Because i know i can't keep accompany you when you need me
So i ask you to go out when you want
I never control you go out or know any new friend
Because it is your freedom to do anything you want
Even after i marry with you also i have no right to control you
But i let you control me anything as you like
Because i just want to make you be secure when be with me
Even i will break some of my promise
But i keep remind myself to bare to my promise and responsibilty
Because i love you the most
Because i care you the most
But now already too late for everything
Bacause now our love already end
Because now i already being replace by him
I wish you both ok there
I wish he really serious to you
I wish he know how to care you more
I wish he know how to love you more
I wish he know how to take care you
I really scared you being hurt or sick
Because i will pain more than anyone
Because i will worry than anyone

I just want you know my heart forever belong to yours
I just want you know that i love you forever
I just want you know that i care you forever

Is end of the story
I can't keep continue for anything more
Because i know i already have no more chance
Because i know how i love and care you also will never change the fact

I now really need to rest
Im now really feel so tired
Somemore im so dizzy now after drunk
I never drunk before
This is 1st time i drunk
Maybe im too upset and sad
Nomatter how dizzy im also i must finish the blog by now
I will put you down
But doen't mean i don't love and care you anymore
But doesn't mean i forget you
I will remember you forever
I will love you and care you forever ever
Just i really need time to recover and calm myself down
And i will never have any other more girls in my life
I prefer to be single if i can't get you back
It is worth for meto do all of this
Because you are so important
I will never regret on what decision i had make
I really feel you are worth for me to do anything
Even you want me to die also i can make it for you
Maybe im crazy and stupid
But is worth for me to do all this to someone i love the most

The last but not the least
Kelvin love vincy forever ever
How also will never change

True love

True love doesn't end...
Hope...Wish... Will...
Be together forever...
Ok?
Love you so much Vincy
Let us create a better future togather
I promise i will be my best to love and care you more
I do serious with you for my entire life
Only you in my heart
Only you in my life
Only you in my world
I will stick with you all the time
Mentally glue we have sure can bring us back togather again

Happy?Sad?Confuse?

Im happy because you at least feel im better than he did
At least you feel i treat you better than he did
At least you feel i care you more than he did
At least you feel i love you more than he did
At least you feel i had improve lot now
I really can accompany when ever you want me
I will be standby just for you anytime

Not because you choose to be with him
Then only i tell you that i don't like him
But the way he treat you not should a boyfriend have
But you still wish to lie yourself that he just not yet get used to be have girlfriend
But for me that is just a lame excuse
He like that just like not really love you
He like that just like not really care you
He like that just like not really serious with you
He make me feel like he is just play with you
You know i really so scared he will hurt you then
Because you both just togather short moment
But already he go to cyber cafe with his friend and just left you aside
Don't you feel he really over for his action?
Now is the most sweet moment for a couple
Why he can do like that to you?
Why he treat you good when want to tackle you from me?
After have you just put you aside
Don't you feel anything wrong?
If he do care you
He will never do so
If he love you
He will never do so
I not understand how can a guy do so to his girlfriend
Somemore is such a caring and lovely girlfriend
I know even myself also don't really treat you good
At least i will never ignore you
At least i will never left you alone
At least i will have more time with you
At least i will love you more
At least i will care you more
At least i understand how your feel
At least i can sacrifice myself to joy you up
At least i can sacrifice my own play time for you
What i know is you really scared to be alone
I know you will so suffer and sad and lonely when there is nobody by yourside
I know all because not just you told me
But i can feel it from you
I really wish to protect you
I really don't want you to get any hurt

16march is our 1st year anniversary
I really wish to have it with you
I don't know what still i can do now
Do the present still meaningful?

You now will find me when you are lonely
Wish to talk with me
But im just your close friend
That all...
But you say you accept him but not fully take him as your boyfriend
Then what you want me do
I also human being
I also got feeling
I really suffer now
But i don't blame you at all
You say sorry to me because drop our 1 year love
You say sorry to me because you break your promise that will never left me so easy
But is really ok...
I really ok...
I don't blame you
So please don't say sorry to me anymore
You say why i don't want to angry or blame you
There is no reason why i must do so
Somemore i so love you
You think i will do that to you?
I prefer to be suffer my own
Also i want you be happy
Also i don't want to hurt you
Do you know i care you more than anyone?
Do you know i love you more than anyone?

You say not happy to be alone there
Hope after talk with me you will feel much better
I know im those who don't know how to talk
I know im those who don't know how to say sweet word
I know im those who don't know how to pujuk you
But i know i love and care you
I wish i can show my love and care to you by action
But not from my word
Because it can be a fake
Because it can be a lie

You say you miss me and think to come to find me
You say you wish to see me
Why?
Still have what meaning for you?
Somemore what for to waste money to come just for a special friend?
I really confuse

You say i still have chance to be with you
But just 50:50
If the guy treat you good
Or you found any other good guy
Mean i have no more chance
You understand how my feel?
You know how the feel to love someone which will never get the love at all
Im experience it now
Really suffer and pain

You know how i miss you?
You know how often i think about you?
You know how important of you in my life?
You know how important of you in my heart?
You know how important of you in my world?

You know now you got gastric
Please remember what i told you to do
I don't want you to suffer as what i did

You know you will be very pain each time period come
Please remember what i told you to do
All i teach you will help you to reduce pain
I really don't want you be so suffer there
Because not just you pain
My heart will even more painful than you have
Because i care you
Because i love you
Because i love you
Because you are my treassure
Because you are my babe
Because i can sacrifice everyhing i have exept you
Because you are vincy
Because kelvin love you

You already have more matured
You already have more good in temper
You already have know how to speak out some of your feeling

Because we will never know how your feel if you never speak out
Because we will never understand how your feel if you never speak out
Because we will never know how to care you if you never speak out
Because we will never know how to protect you if you never speak out
Do you know we all really very care and worry about you?
Especially your mother
She do really care you
She do really want to protect you
That why we will control you
That why we will scold you
That why we will nag you
That why we will remind you
Hope you really can understand what we did really just for your own good

也许爱情是一部忧伤的童话

也许爱情是一部忧伤的童话

♂放弃一個很爱你的人，並不痛苦♀
♂放弃一個你很爱的人，那才痛苦♀
♂爱上一個不爱你的人，那是更痛苦♀

♀逃避，不一定躲得过♂
♂面对，不一定最难过♀
♀孤单，不一定不快乐♂
♂得到，不一定能长久♀
♀失去，不一定不再拥有♂

爱是一种是思念
无论何时何地，当看不到他/她的时候会想念他/她

爱也会是一种担心
当他/她出事的时候，你会比谁都着急

爱是一种包容
你会包容他/她所有的缺点，在你眼里他/她永远是最完美的

爱更是一种回忆
当你想起他/她做出可爱，浪漫的事时，会不知觉的傻笑

觉得好甜蜜，好甜蜜
你体会到了吗，如果沒有就放弃，重新开始吧，祝福你

Im so tired

Im so tired...
After finish my exam just now
I really almost faint down...
I also don't know the reason at all
Feel so headache and gastric right now
Damn dizzy
But i still can't have a proper sleep
I keep night mare all the time
Still have 1 more paper
But don't know when is it will coming to me
Im not yet ready for it
Really scared....
I keep miss you whole day
Keep think back what we talk about yesterday night
You know how worry im now...
You know how pain im now...

If you think you can,you can

If you think you can,you can
I think i want to win your heart again
I sure must work more hard to make it
I sure will wait you here patiently
I sure will love you all the time
Miss you all the time babe
Take care there

Always standby for you Vincy

You forever is my 1st choice in my life
I will always standby here just for you
I will always by yourside when ever you need me
I don't mind to be your 2nd...3rd..4th.....choice
I really don't mind anything anymore
I just wish to let you know that you are the most important person in my life
You are my treassure forever ever
Forever ever 1st place in my life
Forever ever 1st choice in my life
Nomatter how you treat me also i don't mind
Even you no more love and care me also i don't mind
What i mind is i scared i have no more chance or time to love and care you anymore
My heart forever ever just ready for you
Nobody else can have my heart
Nobody else can enter my heart
Nobody else can enter my world
Nobody else can get me away from you
Even there is others standby for me also i will never accept since you more important than anything
Even more important than myself
Because you worth for me to do everything
Because i love you
Because i really really very love you

Realise...

It is a long line that has no turning
Hope springs eternal in the human breast
Never remember the past
Forget the past
Forgive the past
Always walk ahead to your goal

After i read this short sentense
I realise a lot of thing
The long line which has no turning just as like as my relationship
There is no turning for me to be with vincy anymore after breakup
But miracle will happen in next minute
As long as i change myself be a better guy
And prove you my love and care to you
And prove you my loyarity to you
Im sure i will still have chance to win your heart and be togather again
I believe God already arrange the way we must face
I believe our future will be very bright after we had surpass this challenge

No pain no gain
If we never experience the pain after breakup
We will never gain what we wish to have
If we never experience the pain after breakup
We will never know to appreciate someone we do love and care
If we never experience the pain after breakup
We will never know to grow up

I need to forget our past
I need to forgive our past
I need not to remember our past
But i must keep work hard to step forward to our goal
If there is 1000steps for me to succeed to have you for my entire life
As long as i can step forward
Mean i already near to succeed
I believe with my hard work
One day sure can touch your heart
Even the time and energy i need to sacrifice maybe very long
But i feel it is worth to have you for my entire life
Because you always are so special to me
My goal is you
My goal is love and care you with full of my energy
My goal is be with you forever ever

Take care there please

You know i feel so pain after know you are gastric there?
I already ask you to have proper meal and on time
I already ask you not to have so much of spicy and ice thing
But you always say you won't get gastric
Now you see
You suffer now
How..?
You know im so worry and worry you there?
I don't want you become me like this
I know you don't like to drink milk
I won't force you one
But try to have more nestum and try to eat thing on time
Don't get hungry there
If can't eat on time please remember to have something to eat before daily meal
Even just few pieces of biscuit also better than empty you stomach
I really can't take care you much long time
How if im not with you but you are suffer there?
Now i still can worry and care and love you
Now i still can remind you to take care there
But please remember ok
What i always keep remind you also for you own good one
Understand?
Not get used to dating not a excuse
If he really care you
Sure he will have more time with you
Sure he will sacrifice play time with friend
Nomatter how tired or busy also must put you at 1st place
Can't have this kind of excuse to left you alone
I promise to accompany you when you need me
But also i will feel upset because you like not so important to him
I really scared you will get hurt by him later
I really scared
I really worry
I don't want because of me make you get suffer and hurt again
Because i already promise you that i will care and protect and love you forever
This is the one i will never forget and break my promise
I also promise will never ever let you go so easy when you ask to break
I promise i will try my best to care and love you more than him
Im so happy because you feel i had change lot for my temper
But i know everything already too late
You say i always is Ahzai daddy and you are Ahzai mummy
But mummy not belong to daddy
Because is daddy fault
Make mummy hurt and sad
Is daddy fault for break a lovely family
Is daddy fault because can't have Ahlui with mummy
Im so sorry and regret
I ask do he already be your dream prince?
But you say not yet
Im your dream prince before
I really hope i still can continue be your dream prince forever
I hope i won't wait very long time only can be with you again
But im so sad after you tell you never ask me to wait
You know i never mind for anything
You know i only have you in my heart
You know i only have you in my world
You know i only have you in my life
What also i wish to have with you
The time we have not just so short
The time we have must forever ever
I really will keep waiting for you
I really will keep my heart empty just for you
Because kelvin only love vincy in this world
Because kelvin only love vincy for my entire life
Nomatter what also will never change my mind to you
Nomatter what also will never change my love to you
Nomatter what also im yours forever ever
What ever time you need me also i will by yourside
8pm-11pm forever belong to you
Is my practise to have the time with you
I will always on my phone loud when im sleep
Because i can get back to you when you find me
Is my practise to accompany you more

Blur...

I really feel so blur and confuse now
I really don't know what i can do for you more
I really wish you can feel my love and care more
I really wish you can feel i now got more love and care you more
After i lose you than only i know a lot of thing
Include my feeling on you
I know i really love and care you
But after we break
I feel i really impossible to let you go from my life at all
I really so deep in love with you
I know nobody can ever ever give me this kind of feeling
You are the only one who can give me this kind of feeling
You are the one who bring me lot of happiness
You are the one who bring me lot of xingfu
Really
You really very meaningful and important to me
I know i really can't let you go from my life
Even i know the way i act now will make you feel suffer
But i really wish to fight your heart back
I really don't want to be regret later
I really don't want to be alone here anymore
I just wish to have you for my entire life
Even maybe i can't promise you forever ever
But the time i have also i want to be with you only
I want to give you happy and xingfu when i still have chance

I really miss you

I really very miss you there
Is true...
I really very miss you vincy
Im not miss you as a friend
But im miss you as my beloved
I don't know do you still miss me or not
I know if you really miss me also miss as a friend
But i really you can tell me that you are still love and miss me before me that
I really wish to hear
I really hope im still your prince
I really hope im still your beloved
Please let me know everything
Please let me know how your feeling on me now
Please..
I really wish to know all before the end
I really very very love you vincy
You know i really mean it
I really love and care you
I only love and care you
I never been so love and care to anybody before
You are the 1st and also the last
I really happy to be with you
But im so sad and regret after we breakup
You are my only regret in the world
I really wish i can be with you forever
I really wish you can accept me back again
I already change a lot from the days you say to me
I really wish you can accept me back
I know im very crazy and stupid last time
I know i don't know how to appreciate and care people around me
But im now really regret and learn from the mistake
I now really know how to care and appreciate people
I will never treat you like last time anymore
I will never let you cry or hurt anymore
I will never let you regret to accept me back
I really mean it
Im really serious
I swear
If i break my promise
Just let god take me away from the world forever ever
I promise i will listen what ever you say to me
I will always obey what your say

Why...

Why...
What purpose God give me all this challenge?
Want me to appreciate life and people?
But i know God want me to learn to care and love people beside me more
I know...
So i will love and care vincy with full of my heart with the time i have
So i will never regret in future
Even you not love and care me anymore
But i still love and care you forever ever
Im sure i will love and care you forever ever
Nomatter what had happen to us also i will never change my heart
Because i will never meet another true love in my life anymore
This is because you are so important to me
This is because i can sacrifice anything for you
This is because i wish to protect you forever ever
I really don't wish you get any hurt
I will protect you by yourside all the time
I will try my best not to let anything or anyone hurt you
Because you hurt i more hurt
Because you sad i more sad
Because you pain i more pain
Because you are my everything
Because you are more important than myself
Because you are more important than my life

Please take me away

God..
Please take me away
I really tired to work hard for everything
Even the only thing im regret for is vincy
Wish to have you back to me
But i really don't know do you still will give me another chance
But also i can't hold on anymore
Even you are my dream
Even you are my life
But i still don't know why i still think to give up
I really so suffer to be here
Somemore i just can be alone here
Somemore i have no more chance to be with you anymore
Even you say you got feel my love and care to you
But i know you don't have the same feeling on me
So you will never accept me back anymore
I know now you worry and care me also just because im your friend
I don't want to get your sympathy only
I want to have your love and care as babe not just friend
What happen to me now not because you
Just because i can't accept the shock
So you no need to sympathy me at all
Nothing else

Worry+ing you

I really worry you there
I really worry you get hurt there
I really worry
I really scared
I hope i can do more thing for you
I know i don't do much thing to you before
I know i don't care you enough before
I just hope i now can care and love you more
I just hope i now can accompany you more
I just hope i can cheer you up
I just hope i can pay you back

Scared

Just now study until very dizzy
So i fall asleep just like that
I don't know is because study or that?
What happen also i don't know
But just now suddenly think about you vincy
Very miss you until i woke up
And very scared
Because i thought i been unconsious long time
Because i scared i left you alone there
I really scared
Because i already promise you that i will never left you alone
How can i unconsious until you are lonely
I know this is not a excuse to left you alone
I know im bad so i can't repeated this mistake anymore
Sorry vincy

爱

爱

如果爱有原因,那就不爱了;如果爱有目的,那也就不爱了;如果爱可以解释,如果爱合乎情理,那么爱也就不存在了.
爱情不合乎逻辑___或许,这就是爱情的逻辑. 你真正热爱的,或许并不是一个大家公认的最该爱,最值得爱,爱得最正确的人,而只是一个使你忘乎所以,无法不爱.
　　
爱情不合乎逻辑___或许,这就是爱情的逻辑.
你真正热爱的,或许并不是一个大家公认的最该爱,最值得爱,爱得最正确的人,而只是一个使你忘乎所以,无法不爱的人.
爱不是因为被爱,不是为了被爱,而只是因为爱.你不会因为没有被爱而失去爱,爱在爱的人心里,而不在被爱人的眼中.
爱情没有模式.不同的人,为你做同一件事,你会感到天壤之别.因为我们在意的,往往不是人做的事,而是做事的人.
爱在心里,不在口中.绝口不提爱你,不是不爱,而是因为太爱.太爱,所以怕伤害,太爱,所以甘愿受害;太爱,所以容易错过爱.
爱是盲目的.热爱之中,我们会无视对方的缺点,优点便是优点,缺点也成为优点.而放弃时,一切全变了,错了就是错了,对了也是错了.
爱情不会被泪水俘获,可以俘获的是感动与怜悯.
嫉妒并非爱情专一的体现.爱情的基础是相互信任,嫉妒则意味着猜疑与不满.
爱情从不讲究公平,讲得出公平的,不是爱情.你可以甘愿为别人付出一切,却不能要求别人为你奉献任何;你可以不愿抛弃别人,可当你被抛弃时,却不能责怪爱情的无情.
爱情不是强加,不是占有,爱情其实很温柔.如果你要得到他,那么就让他自由;
走得最急的,都是最美丽的风景.伤得最深的,也总是那些最真的感情.
当你想要拼命宣泄刻GU恨的时候,最无力隐藏的,该是同一份铭心的爱.
纠缠与吵闹并不能使爱情维系持久.有时候,执着_体现于无言的忍耐与默默地承受,貌似不爱,却更能使爱得以解脱,得以不朽.
"不强求天长地久,只在乎曾经拥有",其实这只是对天长地久的绝望.
爱情是爱与爱的沟通,情与情的呼应,它无须形影相随,却要求心心相印.
爱可以包容怨,可以接纳恨,爱情不需要说抱歉.同行一生,是难能的缘分,共度一旅,也是一份可贵的纪念!!
爱情没有因果,爱情没有规则,爱情不分对错,爱情永不褪色.
爱情充满逻辑__或许!这就是爱情的逻辑.在所有的雨中,淋湿我的那一滴,才是真的雨!

Arghhh...

Today i not so convenient to move much
My leg is very pain
Twist my leg after playing basketball yesterday
Haiz..
So pain ah
I already massage it but like still no different
How much more pain killer i still need to eat?
I already eat a lot of it
I know i shoudn't eat so much but really pain until i can't hold on anymore
Really miss the time you help me massage my head when im headache
But now i have no chance to enjoy anymore
Nose bleeding all the time
Already enough ya
Make me very suffer
Face so hot
Head so pain
Blood keep come out
Arghh...
I want to give up ah...

Suffering now

Suffering now
Is this because it become more worst?
I really so suffer
I really can't hold on anymore
But i really miss and love you vincy
I still wish to have you again in my life
You are my motivation to keep move on
You are my light in the dark
Lead me to a better way
Tiring now
Is this because i need face exam again?
I really tired
I really need more time to rest and calm down
You navigate me to our future
Navigate me to better future

If i have to choose

If i have to choose between loving you and breathing
I would use my last breathe to say I LOVE YOU,Vincy
I would use my last breathe to say I LOVE YOU FOREVER EVER
Hope i can care and love you with all of my time i have

Hope you understand me

Sorry because disturb you sleep
I really not sure do he treat you good?
If he really don't treat you good
Please let me know
Do you know im still very love you?
Do you know im still very care you?
Do you know im still very worry you?
Do you know im still wish to protect you?
Do you know i really scared you will get hurt?

I really hope you understand all
Even if he treat you good also i wish to be with you again
Because i already promise to myself and god
If im given another chance
Sure i will treat you better than last time
Because you forever is my babe in my life in my heart
Im really serious for that
Even now im sick but also i wish to be with you
Even im now more and more serious also i wish to be with you
Because you are my only regret
Because you are the only treassure i want to have for my entire life
Nothing is valuable than you
You are priceless in my heart
You are my princess
I wish im still your prince
I will do whatever you ask me to do
Im still waiting for you babe vincy
I love you

Love will never fade

I can pretent in whatever thing i need to face
I will do my best to settle all of my thing secretly
I will never let people around me to worry
Expecially you vincy
I don't know what your feeling after know this
But i really wish you can be calm
I don't want you to be sad or hurt
Because i love and care you

I never pretend the feeling to you
For me im very sure that i love and care you
There is no reason for why i so love you
Even myself also can't give any explaination
I just know i love you vincy forever ever
This is the love i will never have with others besides you
The love i have to you will never fade no matter how long times had gone

What is Love and Like..

Like-maybe just because everything he had did to you
Love-will never think or mind whatever you had did for him

Like-maybe just because his personality is good
Love-will never mind even his personality is very bad

Like-will advice him not to go out when rainning
Love-will willing to accompany him when rainning

Like-maybe just because of his good thing
Love-will willing to accept all of his bad thing

Like-maybe because he willing to be your listener
Love-will accept what ever blamming on you from him

Like-maybe need 1000 of reasons
Love-no need any reason at all

Like=a little bit love
Love= deep deep like

My answer is love
I love vincy forever
Not because of anything
Just because is you vincy

My heart will always be with you

I not sure don you now still very happy and xingfu?
But i feel you not so happy now
Because he like not so care about you at all
Always left you alone
I know you don't like this kind of feeling
same as me here
I also don't like to being left alone
We both also love people to care and love
I just want you know no matter what had happen
My heart will always be with you
No matter what happen also will never change my heart to you
I also don't know why im so crazy with you
There is no other reason except i really love you
I know i maybe not so serious in relationship before with you
But you enlighten my life my dream my world
At that moment im sure that you are my forever beloved
At that moment im sure that you are my true love
At that moment im sure that you are my everything
Nobody is perfect in this world
But for me you are totally perfect
I never have this feeling before
You are the only one who bring me to colourful world
You are the my only one
When i 1st know you
Im sure that you are Mrs Right
Im sure that i will only want you for rest of my life
I love you since Jan 2008
Until now im still i love you
That why i can wait you last time
That why i can wait you now
I don't care to wait how long
But for me you are worth for me to sacrifice all of my thing
No matter how also i will never regret
Because i know if i can't fight more to have you again sure i will regret for my entire life
Even if one day i really put you down
Doesn't mean i don't love you anymore
But i feel you already get someone who really good to you and can promise your future
So how suffer or hurt also i must let you go
And wish for your luck
And wish for your happiness
And i will secrectly hide aside to look after you
And i will never look for other babe in my life
Even if i really have other babe in my life
For sure there is nobody will as important as you
For sure there is nobody can replace your position in my heart

I know now i maybe can't give you more promise due to certain reason
But i will still use full of my time to love and care you
Because you are vincy
Because you are my true love and beloved
This is my faith to you
This is my faith to care and love someone in my life
Even maybe there is no result in the end but also is my faith to sacrifice myself
Im loyal and honest to you all the time
I also very stuborn to wait for something impossible
But for me there is nothing is impossible
But this is one of my characteristic
How also i will never regret because the one im waiting to is you vincy

I just want you know even there is many unhappy thing happen to you
I also will be here to be your listener
I will try my best to advice you
I will try my best to care you
I will try my best to cheer you up
Even there is many thing happen
Also i will do my best to help you settle
I don't care how many time,money and energy to help you
But also i will never complaint
But also i will never feel tired
But also i will never feel stress
But also i will never regret
Because i love you

Nomatter how also im still waiting for you
I welcome you back to myside again anytime you like
I welcome you back to myside again when you feel not happy outside
I welcome you back to myside again when you had play enough
Nomatter what reason also i welcome
I don't care if you not so love and care me as old time
But i know im still love and care you as last time
But i promise i will do more perfect than last time
So i will be good to care and protect you
I really wish i can make you be happy for your entire life

I will be with you all the time

I know i should't tell you the truth
The truth always very cruel
I don't wish to tell you because i really care and love you
I scared i will hurt you again
I scared i will make you sad again
I really don't want to be like this
But everything already too late
So please don't ever ever tell anyone
And can't be sad
Please don't cry for me anymore
I know you are so lonely and boring at night
I can accompany you one
Don't worry
Because my heart always be with you
I wish i still can care and love you more
Please let me know when you are sad or moody
Ok?
I will be with you all the time
When you feel not happy or xingfu anymore
I welcome you back
Anytime you want to back also can
If you still don't want me also i will wait
I just i still can be with you while i still have time
Take care there
Love and miss you forever ever

Tired to pretend

Im tired to pretend
I really tired...
Why nobody understand me at all
Why you all never care about my feeling at all
I don't care if you are don't care me
But please don't scold me like hell all the time

I really don't know how long i can last

Thanks Joenl,Teena,Stephanie,Meimei
I know you all keep advice me to be brave and strong
Nomatter how also must keep continue with my thing
I understand but im now really tired,suffer and disappointed
I really lose my courage to keep it on
But also i know you all will angry and sad if i do really give up
But even i don't give up but also i don't know how long it can last
I really don't know what else i can do
I really don't know how strong i can be
I really don't know how long i can last

Don't know what to do

Sorry...
Not i really wish to give up
Because im still waiting for someone important
But is very suffer
Somemore i need to face my own
Nobody care and love me now...
The love and care i want from someone but now no more i can get
So really wish to end up all the suffer and pain

I really want to give up

Today i don't know how many time i had faint down because of pain
The pain killer i have already i clear all
Now im so suffer due to my pain
But nothing i can do
I had to hold the pain
Is really suffer
Can it stop?
Please god..
Let it stop ok?
Please don't suffer me anymore
I know is my repay for treating you bad
Sorry
But please stop all the pain and bleeding
I already had enough
I really want to give up
Sorry

Chubby no more...

Just now i look at mirror
Realise i had slim down a lots
So i choose to weight my weight
Now only i know i had lose bout 13kg
Mean im now almost 60kg
No wonder i feel i looks so old and slim
Now my face no more chubby anymore
Now my face no more extra thing to cubit anymore
But nevermind
Because i just will let vincy cubit
No one else can do so
So even im now no more chubby also nevermind
I now realise my eye bag and panda eye
Now more serious
Now my panda eye more obvious
More dark now...
Haiz...
What to do...

Give up....

Im now so suffer
Im now so pain
Im now so sad
Im now so upset
Im now so down
Im now so tired

I really don't want to accept anything more in my life
I really already feel so tired
I really wish to give up everything

For those know about me sure will scold me
And will ask me to be brave
And will ask me to win all the challenge

But i really can't hold on anymore
Not because im weak
But i really tired
All the thing happen too sudden
I really can't accept the reality

I wish to give up
Sorry to all people who care and support me
I also wish to be with you forever
But i really have no more future due to my own problem
Sorry vincy because what i had promise totally can't realise to you anymore
Sorry vincy because im going to left your life
Sorry...Sorry...Sorry...Sorry...Sorry...Sorry...
Sorry...Sorry...Sorry...Sorry...Sorry...Sorry...

Im just a normal guy

I just a normal guy who need love and care
I just wish to have a normal life
I just wish to have a simple life
I just wish someone who know me
I just wish someone who can comfort me when im in bad mood and sad
Im too ordinary
Nobody will care my feeling at all
Nobody will notice me at all
I just like nobody to everyone
I just like someone who let you all to shout and scold at

You all know i really very hate myself?
You all know i also have my own temper?
You all know i just a normal guy?
You all know i don't like the way you all treat me?

I just wish to have all of my time with someone i love the most
Why i still cant't have just a simple wish?
Why?why?Why?
I just wish to care and love someone i love
But i know im over control but also because i care about you
Even it is bad but also because i love you
I wish to protect you from time to time
I wish to care you from time to time
I really don't wish to see you cry or hurt

You know i really feel so guilty and xinteng when know you get hurt or sick?
You know i really very lonely and scared when you left me alone whole day?
You know i really very worry when i can't get any news from you?
You know i really scared to being alone?

I know im not a perfect guy
And i never ask you to be perfect
But i really so scared to lose you
But i really so worry about you
You maybe dislike what i do
But i just wish to show you my love and care
I really care n love you the most
Nobody i will going to treat like this
And also i lazy to care and love other people i not care
I just be like this to you because for me you are my world
I just be like this to you because i love you

Pain...

I feel so suffer and pain for my head now
No matter how many pain killer i take in also like got no use at all
I still will feel so suffer
I hate to be like this...
Please help me
I really can't take in anymore
I really can't accept anything comes to me anymore
I just wish i have an ordinary life with the one i love
I don't need ant special thing in my life
Just a simple and normal life already enough
The most value property i want to have just you vincy
I really don't want any other things more
I really can put down everything for you
I can put down my self-respect for you as well
I can sacrifice all of my thing for you
I can sacrifice anything just for you
I don't mind for everthing
I just mind you
I just know i really love you
No more others thing
No more others thing
Only you
Only you
Forever only you

The only regret

The only regret i have in my life just you vincy
The only one
Because i lose you and will never have your care and love anymore
I really so regret
But i know i have no more any chance in future
What i can do more else...
Nothing...
Since i also don't know what will going on to us
Im so sorry to vincy because i can't keep my promise to you anymore
Im sorry to vincy because i can't love and care you anymore
I really really love you vincy
Really nobody else i will going to love
You really so special in my life
You really brighten my life
I really wish to have my life with you
But i really know it is already impossible

Please remember...

不要让爱你的人受到一丝一毫的伤害！不要等到失去了，才痛不欲生

Bye...

I don't know what else i write in my blog anymore
Now i just wish to say thanks for those friends who had help me lot during my miserable moment
And also wish to say sorry to those who get hurt from me
Especially you vincy
I know during this whole year
You had get hurt very deep by me
Sorry
And wish to say bye to everyone
Since we can't predict anything in our future
And also don't know what will going to happen in the next secoond
So i had to say bye bye to my family vincy and all my dear friends
If there anything happen also will not going to regret
Wish you all can be happy all the moment
Wish you all the best
I wonder i can you all angel one day
So you all are under well protection
I really don't wish anyone i know get hurt
And for you vincy
Please take good care of yourself
Don't be so blur and mcc anymore
You also must grow up and be more matured
Wish you can be forever happy
No matter what had happen
You forever is my beloved babe
This is the faith i have you as my babe
This is the faith for me to love you so much
Im really glad for all the thing give by God
Im really glad
Even we can't be togather forever
But you forever stay in my heart
The love to you will never fade
The care to you will never less
Just maybe the way is different
Just maybe from other place to show you
Bye vincy
I love you forever ever
I miss you forever ever

Enough...

Today im so tired and tired
Today i really feel not well at all
But i still insist to go for basketball
But today really so cold
Even i already wear long sleeve and jacket but still so cold
We play almost 3 hours there
Tired now...
Just can lay down on bed doing nothing
Im so worry and fan...
I really don want to have anymore trouble comes to me anymore
I really can't take in any other thing in my mind
My health already very spoil now
Now i already can't do anything
Now i already can't care and love people anymore
Now i already can't bring any happiness to people anymore
Sorry to you all
Sorry to vincy because i maybe can't bring you any other sweet and happy moment anymore
Sorry...
I already have enough
My life is so miserable
I really wish to give up everything
I really don't wish to keep continue with you all
I really tired

Health...

Is enough...
Everything already enough
I really very suffer all the time now
Why you must keep trouble me
Why health must keep trouble me
I hate you
I hate you
Please let all the things come to end
I reallt don't wish to get any suffer anymore
I now already so suffer after all the things happen
So can you please left me anymore?
Don't keep come to me again and again...

Why must make me so suffer now

Nose bleeding again and again
What wrong to me?
How come keep bleeding
Somemore is not easy to stop it
Somemore each time i bleed also i feel so hot on my body and so headache
What wrong to me?
Please don't scared me
Please don't worry me
Please don't worry those who care me
Please don't suffer anymore
Please don't play me anymore
If really need me to go to end
Why must make me so suffer now

Argh.....

Tired...
Not because of nothing but just i also don't know
Maybe is because i don't have proper rest recently
I really don't know
Im feeling suffer especially in night time
Because already not much thing i can do at that moment
So lonely and lonely
Quiet night is the time i most suffer
Haiz...
Even have no mood to continue study and sleep
What i can do...
What i can do...
I will look back all the photo but i will more upset afterward
But i only can have my memory back by those photo
Since now i already can't have memory in reality anymore

Vincy...Kelvin only love you forever

Can you please don't say sorry to me anymore?
You know i don't like you to say sorry to me
I really don't like
You like this will make me more suffer
You like this will make me more guilty
You know all is my wrong
Why you still want to keep say sorry?
You know no matter how many sorry you say also won't recover my heart?
You know no matter how many sorry you say also won't change the ending we have?
You know no matter how also i never blame or angry you
You know no matter how also i will going to blame and angry myself for everything
So please don't do like this anymore
I now really work hard to be your friend
Because i know now i really have no more any chance anymore
I don't have chance now
I don't think i still will have any chance in future
Since you will still compared me with other
So i will never ever have chance to back into your heart
I will never have chance to marry with you
I will never have chance to have child with you anymore
But if miracle comes one day sure i will appreciate it
Because no matter how long times had gone by
You forever still place no.one in my heart
You forever the only girl i love and care in the world
You know i really mean it
I never lie you anything until now
Since i know you don't being cheated
Since i know you wish your man be loyal just to you
So i will never cheat you
So i will be loyal to you forever

Vincy...Kelvin only love you forever
Vincy...Kelvin will only love you one in my life
No more other who can come into my life

Not just now but is forever
Even you not love me also you can't stop me from love you
Even you not love me also you can't stop me from waiting you

I will be yours forever
I will only belong to you forever

No matter there is a lot other good girls outside also i will never accept
Because for me you are my world
Because for me you are my life
Because for me you are my everything

Because for me you are even important than myself

Upset...

Just now im clean some of my thing on my desk
Include book and my diary
When i put them back into my cupboard
Letter you write to me and your photo drop out
Im so upset when saw all these thing
I think i can put you down
But i know i can't after saw all these thing
Is very happy and sweet to read back your letter
Even just short letter
But i really treassure them
I keep in my diary because you will be always by myside all the moment i goes by
When open my drawer
Saw the love keychain you gave me
This keychain is meaningful if both love each other and mix them togather
Because it is love shape
Without you and your love
Make me feel incomplete
Just like the keychain
It will never become a complete heart and love anymore
Just like my life
Totally incomplete since i can't get any love and care from you anymore
I will never be complete anymore when you not with me
Once i saw all these thing make me almost get cry again
Each time also i hold myself
I don't let any single of my tears drop out
I know im so useless while im still being so sad and suffer here alone
While you already start your new life with him
I know how sad or suffer im now also you will never know
I know how sad or suffer im now also you will never care
But im still very care about you
Really wish to know what are you doing there
How is your life over there
Im so guilty because i can't protect and take care you anymore
While i promise i will protect and take care you forever until my last breath
But now all become like this
I really hate who im
I really hate im kelvin
I really hate myself why i never love and care you more
If i know then we will never end up like this
This semester i still quiet free
Less subject i need to study
Make me have more time to think about myself
Why we must have that much subject last semester
Why we must combine the subject for 1st and 2nd year togather last semester
Is very crazy
Make me really crazy
So busy and tiring life here
No much time to relax
No holiday at all
Just can rest by sunday but still pack with homework
But all already past
If you now still with me
Im sure i will never be that crazy anymore
How do i live my days without you
Please forgive me
I swear i will never be like that anymore

The day you went away

Well I wonder could it be
When I was dreaming 'bout you baby you were dreaming of me
Call me crazy call me blind
To still be suffering is stupid after all of this time

Did I lose my love to someone better
And does she love you like I do
I do you know I really really do

Well hey so much I need to say
Been lonely since the day
The day you went away
So sad but true
For me there's only you
Been lonely since the day
The day you went away

I remember date
09-02-2009
No longer shouting at each other
There were tears on our faces

And we were letting go of something special
Something we'll maybe never have again
I know, I guess I really really know

Well hey so much I need to say
Been lonely since the day
The day you went away
So sad but true
For me there's only you
Been crying since the day
The day you went away

Why do we never know what we've got till it's gone
How could I carry on
The day you went away
Cause I've been missing you so much I had to say
Been crying since the day
The day you went away

Cause you, you light up my life

So many nights, I'd sit by my window,
Waiting for someone to sing me her song.
So many dreams, I kept deep inside me,
Alone in the dark, now you've come along.

And you light up my life,
You give me hope, to carry on.
You light up my days
And fill my nights with song.

Rollin' at sea, adrift on the waters
Could it be finally, I'm turning for home
Finally a chance to say, "Hey, I Love You"
Never again to be all alone.

And you light up my life,
You give me hope, to carry on.
You light up my days
And fill my nights with song.

You, You light up my life
You give me hope to carry on
You light up my days
And fill my nights with song
It can't be wrong, when it feels so right

Cause you, you light up my life

I swear

I swear by the moon and the stars in the sky
And I swear like the shadow that's by your side

I see the questions in your eyes
I know what's weighing on your mind
You can be sure I know my part

Cause I'll stand beside you through the years
You'll only cry those happy tears
And though I make mistakes
I'll never break your heart

I'll give you every thing I can
I'll build your dreams with these two hands
We'll hang some memories on the walls

And when...and when just the two of us are there
You won't have to ask if I still care
Cause as the time turns the page,
My love won't age at all

And I swear...I swear by the moon and the stars in the sky
I'll be there...I'll be there
I swear...and I swear like the shadow that's by your side
I'll be there...I'll be there

For better or worse,
Till death do us part,
I'll love you with every beat of my heart
And I swear