Bad day...

Exam.....
Finally i finish..
But still have 2 more to go and the date not yet fix
Haiz
But im not so easy for my day...
Im really tired...
Not just because study make me tired
But also because lot thing happen in a short while
Not just body tired
But also mental and my heart
My heart now is so empty
I still like losing my soul since the day you left me
But i will think way to fill up my heart again
But my heart like no more my heart..
Since i already give my heart to you
But i broke it into pieces
Even i had recover it
But there are still a lot scars there
All scars is hidden
Nobody can see
Nobody can feel
Only i know how pain is it
But i must be brave also
I know there are still lot more challenge are waiting for me in future
If im still give up so easy
You sure will never forgive me
I also will look down at myself

Today not a good day...
Since i pain due to gastric many days also can't recover
Take medicine also like no use
Still pain and pain
Somemore like more serious than other days
I experience to faint because too pain
But this time more often
Even i try take some nestum also like no use
I also don't know why recently my health become very poor
Is because of my emotional?
Is because i too upset?
Please don't ask anymore since i also not sure for that

I keep study for my exam but i think is still ok for my exam just now
Exam start by 7pm
So i had to go out by 630pm
But while im walking
It is so windy and cold
So i lower my head down
And im keep think back what i had study until i don't notice the road at all
Too bad i almost get crash by bicycle again....
Why i say again because recently i not almost crash by car then bike ...
Now is bicycle
Oh my god
Maybe you are right
Im too blur and mcc
Always think and think while walking
Never watch out
Haha...
What to do...
Im the one who love to think
Even im not think about any important thing but i will also like day dreaming
Gosh...
But i recently face many unfortunate thing
Or i should call myself as Mr Blackie?
When im in exam hall
I lay on desk to rest my mind for few minute before exam
After i wake up and ready for exam
I found a lot of blood on my desk and also my shirt
I have nose bleeding due to weather
Too cold and dry
I not 1st time to be like this but this time blood come out non stop
I use whole pack of tissue to stop it from keep continue
While im exam and it happen to me
Somemore the paper i have not required me to write but is draw
Today i have my technique engineering drawing A1
Need to use 2 and to exam
So i have no extra hand to hold tissue
So i roll it and stuck in my nose
Are you kidding me...
Im so funny at that moment
Everyone who saw me also laughing
What a shame
When im concentrate
Im not sure is because of i don't have enough rest recently
Or too tension
Or lost too many blood
Suddenly i can't see anything once again
And not just for few second or few minute
But i feel i lost my sight about 10minute
Haiz...
I must go for checkup....
Is urgent for me to go

Since im alone at oversea
And i had lose someone who really care and worry about me
So i must take good care of myself
Even now after she know everything also like nothing anymore
But i can't make her feel that i don't know how to care and take care and love myself
Because she told me if i don't know all the thing
Im not qualified to care and take care and love others
So i must let show her i will take good care of myself
Sound like a bit too late for me realise all this thing
But at least im wake up for all the thing
If not i will never know
And will never change
And will never have anymore chance

why....

Why i keep miss and think about you?
Since i say i will put you aside 1st
Why...
Make me so suffer...
Because i know even how much i miss or think you also you will never feel it anymore
Why must i keep make myself to be so suffer
Even you are worth for me to wait an wait
But since you already have new guy by yourside
I should temporarily put my feeling aside
But i don't know why i can't make it
I know i only can show me your care and love when the chance come
But i really don't know when the chance will come to me again since i already miss the moment

If she love you

When a Girl is quiet ... millions of things are running in her mind.
When a Girl is not arguing ... she is thinking deeply
When a Girl looks at u with eyes full of questions ... she is wondering
how long you will be around.
When a Girl answers ' I'm fine ' after a few seconds ... she is not at all fine.
When a Girl stares at you ... she is wondering why you are lying.
When a Girl lays on your chest ... she is wishing for you to be hers forever.
When a Girl wants to see you everyday... she wants to be pampered.
When a Girl says ' I love you ' ... she means it.
When a Girl says ' I miss you ' ... no one in this world can miss you more than that.
Life only comes around once make sure u spend it with the right person....
Find a Guy .. who calls you beautiful instead of hot.
Who calls you back when you hang up on him.
Who will stay awake just to watch you sleep.
Wait for the guy who ... kisses your forehead.
Who wants to show you off to the world when you are in your sweats.
Who holds your hand in front of his friends.
Who is constantly reminding you of how much he cares about you and how lucky he is to have you.
Who turns to his friends and says, ' That's her!! '

How....

What i can eat here
What i can eat in canteen
Since nothing much thing i can eat
All contain meat
How can i eat all those thing
Too bad...
I don't wish to break my promise anymore
I know is not good for me to break
Somemore once i break my promise
It will hurt someone i do care and love so much
Even the promise i make this time not to her but is for her
So i must stick to my promise
I will keep eat vege until i can care and love her again
What i can do for her now just this
Nothing else i can do...

Dream...

Im so lonely after the day you say goodbye
Even i don't say goodbye but also got no different
I used to spend time with you from 9pm-11pm each night
Either msn,skype,sms or call
But now i don't even have chance to hear your lovely sound
And no more chance to see your cute look
I really so miss you...
I really miss the moment we togather...
Haiz...
Luckily i still can dream you yesterday night
Even just a dream but i also quiet happy since i really sometime don't see you and hear from you
Im so miss
But too bad i can't smell anything
But i will remember how your body smell
It is the best one i never have
You know what i dream?
I dream the time we go shopping in Ipoh
So sweet..
Is my 1st time to go shopping with you
Also is my 1st time i go shopping with girlfriend
Since before this i never wish to go
And they never ask me to...
So you are the 1st one..
Even is a bit tired after shopping but im so enjoy
Last time i told you im scared to shopping right
But i change my mind that moment
I wish to accompany you to shopping whenever you want
But now i won't go shopping anymore since just left me alone
I still remember the moment i help you look for suitable shirt to match you another shirt
Even what i choose maybe not accepted by you
But im still happy since i can help you some
That is 1st time you meet my parent
I saw you feel so shy
You are so cute
The time you feel shy really very cute
I never seen you shy before
This is 1st time i see
Hehe...
Because the time i give you suprise also i have no chance to see
For me..you are the cutest girl in the world
Im lucky to have you in my life
Sorry because im too bad because of my own problem make you totally disappointed with me until we end up like this
Im so so regret
But what else i can do except change myslef and wait for your back patiently
Who ask i never appreciate and care you
Who ask me must wait until i lose only i realise how good you to me
Who ask me must wait until i lose only i realise how important you in my heart and life
I really can't stand to stay alone without you
I even think to die
But i know you will never come back to me if i do so
So i must be brave for everything
So i must face all the challenge and test
There is reason why god wants us to break
Not just want me to change myself
So i can care and appreciate you more
But is also wish to let us know how important each other
And also try to test our love
And test our loyarity
And test our sincerity
So i promise i will prove all this to god and you
Maybe im not a good guy before
But i can ensure you that i will be a good guy in future
I can ensure you that i will be a responsiblity guy in future
Believe me
I know i always break my promise before because i not strong enough to stick to my promise
I know you been hurt and disappointed
I know you keep forgive me until you can't take in anymore
Sorry
What i change now not just for temporarily
But i will always stick to it
I will never let you down anymore
Because i now really realise how important you are
So i will work more harder to hold you by my side
I will never ever be so stupid again
I not just dream that
But a lots more
Include the time you help me massage my shoulder and head
Im so relax and enjoy
I don't know when i still can have you to massage
I ask you not to help me massage much because i don't wish you to be so tired
But actually i really enjoy when the time you help

Tired...Tired...

Tired...Tired...
Stress...Stress...
Exam again and again...
Make me so bored...
Luckily even i feel so tension and stress now..
Im still feel ok..
At least i can manage to contol my emotional
I still feel so peace in my mind
I don't even have any bad attitude and temper until now...
Yeah...
I believe i can make it...
I will keep work hard
I will maintain it and show to you

Haiz....

Haiz...
Today been called to meet my leader
Too bad...Being nag ...
Im so sorry since i have lousy result once again
I will more harder this semester
Try to pay more attention on my study
May god bless me....

Please Take Care There....

I know your bank assign some job which out your part
Is not unlucky but you take it as your challenge and the experience maybe will be useful for your future
Maybe it will easy for you to get promoted
So glad for whatever opportunity you have
I know you need to work outside bank
So please remember to have more liangcha and 100plus
If remember please have more vitamin also
I know all vitamin in your mother room
Please go and eat
Ok?
If forget then nevermind la
Try to have more rest there
Sorry because im also busy here
So can't care you so much
Sweet dream each night
Hope pillow and Ahzai accompany you will make you sleep well at night
Bye...

Gastric....

I have my paper by tomorrow night
But im still not much prepare for it
It drive me so tension and nervous again
I start to feel gastric
I already take medicine but i still feel so pain but i must still keep work hard
If i can't graduate on time
How for me to go back to you
I will feel so sorry to you because i wish i can back to care you
Even that moment we still not yet be togather
But i will still wish i can care you while try my best to win you back
I will take deep breathe so won't be feel so tension here
I must be confident with myself
Nomatter how also i must pass my exam
As you told
No coffee i can drink so i also don't drink it now
I will go sleep early and keep continue after wake up
Don't worry
What ever you had told me also i never forget
And i will keep practise all my promise to you
Im still have you as my motivation to keep work hard in my study and my life
You too take care there
Don't get too tired by your job
I will miss and think you all the time
Bye...Bye...

Ooops..sorry god

Oh my god...
I had make some mistake....
Sorry god...
I break my promise to god just now
Since i promise to eat vege for her happiness and safety
But just now i accidentaly ate some meat
Hope god won't blame me but will still kept my pray to her
Im so worry her there
Because now we already not much contact
I already can't take care her anymore
I really wish my pray to her can make her to be happy all the moment she have
I really wish my pray to her can make her safe all the time be alone in malaysia
I really wish she is ok there
If anything happen to her
What should i do?
Im pray to you god
Hope my god can deliever my care,worry,miss,and love to her from time to time
I pray i can be her guardian angel to protect her from not getting any hurt
Thanks god for everything...

Worst birthday and valentine i ever have

I should happy because my birthday by 15Feb
That mean i can continuous to celebrate my birthday after valentine
But it is too sad to say...
I been lonely for my valentines and birthday for 22 years
But my 22years old valentines and birthday is the worst one i ever have
Im not just be alone but also sad
There is too many thing happen in my whole winter holiday
I don't have good mood for everyday i have during that moment
But now already past
And i don't wish to say much on this thing anymore
Since the more i think
The more i will feel upset
So i will choose to forget this memory from my life
But nevermind
I will take all as my lesson
And im now learn from mistake
And i will learn to change myself to be a better guy
I will work hard for my life
I really wish i can be happy in my coming valentines and birthday
Maybe i have no more chance to celebrate with you anymore
But i will still have a wonderful time with you in my dream
Hope what i have dream can comes to reality
Hope we can be togather and have wonderful time in short moment
But i don't know how long i need to wait...
But i willing to wait for that
It is worth for me towait here

Myself....

I been in this world for 22 years
But actually i don't found any destiny for me to keep continue here
I been so lonely and lonely here and there
Even seems like i have a lot of friend
But i don't like to hang out with them too much
Since i really don't have the mood to go out at all
Somemore the less i go out i can be safe and save money
But i know this is not so healthy for my life
I know i must be more social with my friends
So i will try to go out more and join with my friend whenever im free
But recently there is a lot of thing im facing
About my dream
About my life
About my family
About my health
About my love
About my study
About lots more else
Im so confused sometime but im lucky to have some friend who really loyal to me and wish to accompany me whenever i need them
They give me a lot of advice for me get through what ever challenge and test im facing
Thanks you all
Im so appreciate you all
Im now also facing all these problem
And i also get some advice from you all
And i understand and i will bare in my mind forever
Now im on progress to change a lot of thing
Im facing some challenge that i never predict will be happen to me
Include my health
I never predict i will have mental problem
Even sound like im crazy but is still ok
As long as i balance my mood
Don't be to sad,happy or down in a short while
I will try to be more calm and calm
I now already know how to reduce my preassure and tension well
Because the stress im facing now is very heavy
Im so stress until i lost my happiness,health and my lover
Im so regret for whatever had happen
Don't worry
Im now keep contact with my counselor and im feeling better
Even sometimes i still can't sleep well in the night
But it is not as often as last time
I believe that i can win all the test on me
I will have more exercise when im free
Now i realise all changes i made really make myself more relief
I feel im so stupid last time
Even i know i can't control everything in my life
But i will still keep force myself to do what i dream to have
Now i learn how to put myself down
I know everyone is not perfect
And i know myself also not a perfect guy
So i will never ask people around me to be perfect anymore
Because if i keep wish other people can do as what i wish
Not just i feel tired but the one who get control also will be so stressand tired
The way i care people is totally wrong
Now i learn to care others
I will never control others much
And will never keep remind all the same thing again and again
But i will talk to the god and sky
I believe the people i care will hear what i say
I will pray for someone i care too
Because im too far from you
So i can't look after you but i sure the god can
I now learn to be confident with myself
I must brave with myself
Because my destiny is on my hand
I must be brave and be confident only i can success in my life
I will love and care myself more
So only i can love and care you more
I know like this only can make you more secure

一个成熟的爱情...

一个成熟的爱情...

有一位心理学家曾写过，一个成熟称得上真爱的恋情必须经过四个阶段，那就是：
- 共存(Codependent)
- 反依赖(Counterdependent)
- 独立(Independent)
- 共生(Interdependent)

第一个阶段：共存
这是热恋期间，情人不论何时何地总希望能黏在一起。

第二个阶段：反依赖
等到情感稳定后，至少会有一方想要有多一点自己的时间做自己想做的事，这时另一方就会感到被冷落。

第三个阶段：独立
这是第二个阶段的延续，要求更多独立自主的时间。

第四个阶段：共生
这时新的相处之道已经成形，你的他/她已经成为你最亲的人。你们在一起相互扶持，一起开创属于你们自己的人
生。你们在一起不会互相牵绊，而会互相成长。

但是，大部分的人都通过不了第二和第三阶段，而选择分手，这是非常可惜的。
很多事只要好好沟通都会没事的，不要耍个性，不要想太多，要互相信任，这样，第二和第三阶段的时间就会缩短。
和所爱的人相遇相恋是非常不容易的，不要轻言放弃。
两人相聚是因为有缘，相知是因为有心，真的得好好珍惜这福分。希望能给大家一些启示和领悟，并惜缘。
我们会渐渐变成我们所爱的人。你和他本来没有相同之处，外表不相像，性格也南辕北撤，一旦爱上了，年深日久，你会惊讶你的眼睛有点像他的眼睛，他的微笑也有点像你的微笑。你们走路的步伐也有点相似，说话的语气也越来越相像。原来我们会变成我们所爱的人。
你本来喜欢脚踏实地的人，而他一向比较轻佻，但你们爱上了，他竟会不知不觉变成一个老实人，这个改变，连他自己也不曾察觉。他本来喜欢活泼的女孩，却爱上拘谨的你，这些日子，你竟会越来越活泼，你差点认不出自己。我们会逐渐变成对方理想中的人，这种改变绝对不是刻意的。两个人越爱得长久，气质也越来越相近。
你曾经以为他不是你梦寐以求的那种类型，然而，有一天，你会惊讶的发现，他已经变成你喜欢的那种类型，你不必再到处寻觅，他就是你要找的人。深深爱着一个人的时候，你原来真的会一点一点的失去自己，为什么你还会觉得快乐呢？大概是因为你在失去的时候，你把他的气质和微笑都赚回来了。
其实幸福很单纯，所以要很单纯的人才容易获得。
真爱--就是不要轻言放弃。

Love You...

If ask me to make decision again
I will still want to be your hubby
Because i never meet someone i love so deep before
But sure i won't treat you as bad as now what i had did
I will treassure you good
I know is very late for me to say all this thing
But i really wish you to know i never change my love to you
I know i had change my temper and attitude until you say you sometime don't know who im
But im sorry to you
Im now really regret for everything
I really had change lot after we break
I follow what you had told me because im still wish to be with you again
Because i wish to have a happy ending with you
I really don't wish to have this ending
I know is my wrong who lead to what had happen
But i swear to god
If you really give me another chance
I will prove you that im change
I will never be so crazy and childish as last time
I will give both more space so we will not feel so tired
I will will more independent on myself
I will not too depend on you since it make me more worry and lonely
Thus will make me lost control again
I promise to you that i will never do all this thing anymore
I will behave myself good
Please believe me ok?
Because i know i had hurt you so deep this time
Because i know if im still act like this
You sure will left me and you will never forgive me anymore
Since i really love you and no other
Whatever you don't like also i will never repeat
If not i will be very regret and will never forgive myself
I will hate myself forever
Even now im also very hate myself because im so guilty to you since i don't treassure your love
But i still wish you can change your mind when you still have feel on me
Please don't keep in your heart anymore
Please don't lie anymore
I really don't believe that you really can put down everything so fast
Since im also can't put down any single things of us
Not because of what
But is because of love
If you really love someone
You will never say goodbye
So i will never say goodbye to you
I will never let you down and alone anymore
I will be brave to face our problem
I will never always run from facing any problem and test we are facing
Because we must face and settle all the problem side by side
So we can make our relationship more tough
It can reduce any quarrel between each other
It can reduce any misunderstanding between each other
Please give me a new chance to prove you ok?

I Will Treassure You

Do you sure you really love him and no more love me?
Please don't because just he now can bring you happiness then you give me up
I sure you sure still got feel on me
Just because my attitude and temper make you disappointed and keep it up
But i just wish you to think clearly again
Because im now really regret
People will be more appreciate and care after lose once
So im also the same
I sure will treassure you more
I promise you i won't repeat the same problem again because i know you will left me if im still so bad
Please...
Please give me another chance..

Please give me another chance

Im so upset for all thing happen
Im now so tension for my study
And suddenly a lot of things comes to me
I really can't accept all
Now i can't think anything at all
Im black out now
Preassure make me keep lost my sight
I keep can't see anything in few second
Sometime i can't see anything in few minute
What wrong to me...
I been like this since july
And now seems more serious and more often
Am i going to crazy?
I wish i can be ok now...
I hate preassure
I know is my wrong because don't know how to balance myself
Keep drive me crazy
Keep drive my emotion
Not just spoil my health
Not just spoil my life
But now also spoil the relationship i really treassure the most
I really wish you can back to me
But you told me you already accept him
And say don't know should accept or not
What you try to mean?
I know you now all very happy
But we also happy togather before
But because my temper and attitude
Make you totally lost confident with me
But you really can put down all the memory we have and what we have togather that easy and fast and accept him?
I know he treat you good
I also treat you good but just recently my study make me change a lot
But i promise i will control myself
I really wish we can be sweet again
I really no more important in your heart anymore?
I really have no more chance to ask you back?
I now really had change myself a lot
I now really much better
Maybe im not as perfect as the one you just know me
But please give sometime
Sure i can be a whole new kelvin for you
Please believe me
I wish i still have one more chance from you to show you that i really love and care you
I know i had control and nag you too much before
But i really can change
I not just simply say all this thing
I really can make what i promise you
Since i already lose you once
Sure i will and must treassure and appreciate you
Because i really learn mistake from this lesson
I really don't wish to lose you again from my life again if i been given another chance
Impossible i wish to lose you again since i so love you
Maybe im not perfect but i will never repeat the same mistake
Im stupid but still know to think
I know you treat me good
So i will never never act so rediculous anymore
Please believe me again
I know you not yet totally put me down yet since we have sweet and happy moment
Even we always argue but it also make our relationship tough
Our relationship become worst recently
Sorry
I really wish i can make you be confident with me again
I sure will bring you happy and xingfu again
I already plan to engage with you once i graduate and get my posting in company
I really plan all the thing
I already start to save my money
The reason i always tell you that i have not enough money to use because i save up for our future
I just wish to make you be secure to be with me
But i never let you know because i wish to give you suprise
I not just wish to make you happy because i graduate and back to you
But also engage with you so you will be more happy and secure
I do love and care you babe
Just i use the wrong method to show my care and worry to you
I will never do so to you anymore
I will try to discuss with you more before i do any action
Until now i still wish KV 4ever

True love...

其实很多男孩子都不知道，女孩子在冲他们发火后自己转过身却在不断啜泣。
实很多男孩子都不知道，女孩子从来不会真正去生他们的气，因为她是真的喜欢他在乎他。
其 实很多男孩子都不知道，女孩子只会对自己喜欢的男生唠唠叨叨，也只会对自己喜欢的人耍性子。你要知道，假若她不喜欢你，她根本不会来在乎你关心你，怕你做 错事情。你要知道，假若她不喜欢你，她根本不会对你发火不会冲你撒娇让你哄她，在别人面前她都是淑女。你要知道，假若她不喜欢你，你根本就没有本事让她哭 泣，让她即使生气也不会超过2天。而这一切都只是因为她喜欢你，而这一切都因为你还不够在意她不够懂她。
　　
于是，你们时常争吵，你认为她脾气不好，她认为你不够迁就她。于是，你们总是冷战，你以为她不喜欢你，她以为你不在乎她。于是，你们总是莫名其妙的彼此错过，也许擦身而过，本身就是一种悲伤着的无奈与幸福。 　　
要 知道，凄美依然是美的一种，并且美的绚丽悲凉而沧桑，那是更加的美。因为她喜欢你，所以她偶尔冲你发火，时常对你撒娇。因为她喜欢你，所以她才会生你的 气；而又因为喜欢你，她才不会去生气很久。你可知道，每个女孩子的心都是水晶做的，晶莹剔透，但是很容易就碰伤摔碎。你可知道，每个女孩子都是不设防的， 你那么轻易就闯进她的心，走的时候却只留下伤害。

她从来都不知道，这个世界上根本没有可以让她哭的人，因为真正值得她哭的那个根本舍不得让她哭。她会很矜持，她会很骄傲，她会很冷淡，她总是嘴里说着你走开，心里却一直叫你留下。 你了解女孩吗? 　　
请你张开你的耳朵，也请你打开你的心，去听她心里真正的呼唤，而不是她嘴里的口是心非。她会看着你转身，然后她跟着你转身，当侧身而过的时候，你看不见她的泪，滂沱在脸上心里。
如果你喜欢她，请你多陪她；如果你喜欢她，请你多宠她；如果你喜欢她，请你多让她。如果你喜欢她，请你去听听她内心的声音，那是呐喊——请拥抱她。

在 爱情里，总是彼此伤害，彷佛这样才能证明自己爱得激烈爱到轰轰烈烈。可是，爱情里没有孰对孰错；爱情里更加没有你比我多我比你少。你爱她，她爱你，如此就 已经足够。不要试图让彼此的伤害，让彼此更加脆弱悲伤。你们彼此相爱，你们需要的是温暖是幸福是甜蜜是快乐，不是伤害。不要用沉默宣战，不要互不相让，
更不要什么话都不讲就冷漠离去。

要 知道，你离去的时候，你的眼睛起了雾，她的眼角泛着泪光。越是安静战火就越深，这是冷战也是彼此的伤害——无论是怎么的复合，那些伤口曾经存在，抹不去。 请跟她一个拥抱，用你的拥抱去化解她心里的悲伤与眼角的泪水。她喜欢你，她绝对不会拒绝你的拥抱，她只会害怕你的冷漠转身无声安静。　
　　　
请 记住，相爱的人不要轻易宣战，因为冷战带来的伤害，超出你的预计。也请记住，只要你喜欢她，没有什么是你接受不了的，只要你喜欢她，就喜欢她的一切一切。 那么她所有的小性子所有的坏脾气所有的臭毛病，在你眼里都是撒娇。也请记住，她喜欢你，她需要的不是你真的转身，她嘴里说着的也不是她的真心话。她只是想 你宠她，想你抱她，哪怕，没有道谦。

How bad im

Oh my god...
Im so stupid
Until now only i know i been treat you so bad
Sorry because is me who lead to this ending
I really don't hope this really happen
But it really happen
Why im so bad
Why i never treat her good
Why i never appreciate her at all
I know what i say now already too late since you already accept him
And i already become your past
All the thing we have before also gone
Im so so regret
I know i shouldn't nag you so much
But i just wish to remind you thing
But after remind too much and it become nag
I know i shoudn't control you so much
But im too worry and care you
But the way and action i use to show my love and care to you is totally wrong
I know i had control you until you hard to breathe
I know i been scold you too much
But i also don't know why that moment i can't calm down my emotional
If i know how to calm myself
Sure i won't scold you
Sorry vincy...
Now i know what actually wrong i had make to you
I must change myself now
And i will prove you by my action
I just wish you can give me 2nd chance to be your dream prince again
Even i don't treat you good but i do love and care you
I never lie you about my love to you
Hope everything can back to normal again
Wish i still can be couple with you again

Love Is Blind

When you really love someone
You will totally blind
Nomatter what had happen also you won't care
What you care just be togather with the one you love
Nomatter how people tell you also you won't going to hear

Because im also the same
Im so blind in love now
Even you all ask me is time for me to let her go from my life since she already ask for break
Why must you keep do so
Is not worth to keep continue
But i don't think so
Since you are important in my life and i will never let you go
But i will still wish you to stay happy no matter who you choose to be with
And i will still keep be loyal to you
And i sure will take good care of myself
Sure i won't let you to worry and guity

Never Give Up..

If you really love someone
You will never never give up so easily
Nomatter what happen also will tolerate and discuss to each other
Since once you miss the chance to be togather
Sure will regret later
If you really so easy to give up someone
How deep you love someone??
How serious you take someone in your life??

Because i really love you
So i will not give up you so easy
If one day i really say goodbye to you
But it doesn't mean im going to give up you
While i will still love you
But i will never let you know anymore since i don;t wish to keep torturing you anymore
Because i love you
So i must care you
What i can tell you here is i will never give up u in my life

Why im still waiting for something impossible?

Why im still waiting for something impossible?
I really don't know why im so stupid
Keep waiting here while you now already no longer love me
I know i already don't have much chance to ask you back to my side anymore
Since you already make up your mind to accept if he ask
Do i need to say goodbye to you now?
But i still very love you
But i still very care you
But i still very worry you
I really can't put you down from my life
I really can't put you down from my heart
But i really don't know how to face you once you be with him
Im so jealous
Im so envy
Because you are so perfect for me
Because you are so good for me
If i really say goodbye to you
Im sure i will regret awhile later
You know i really love you
Even we breakup before because of me
But im so regret and ask for your back
I know im bad
I know i had hurt you very deep
But at that moment i really wish to say goodbye to you
Because i feel that you are so suffer and tired to be with me while i sometime really don't treat you good
Im so regret why must i hurt you so before
Now i finally know how your feel when your love one ask to breakup
I now still feel so hurt and sad
I feel thousand of knife stab into my heart
Sorry...

Please accept my apology

I wish to say sorry to those who ever cry because of me
Im sorry to my parent because for my bad temper and bad attitude
Sorry daddy mammy...
I start to change myself now
Please don't always worry and angry anymore
I will be a good son to you all
Im sorry to my sister because i always shout back at you once you start to nag me
Sorry jiejie...
I won't do like this anymore
Im sorry to my beloved babe
Sorry vincy
I know i had scold you many times before
I know im so ridiculous sometime
Im now in progress to change myself
Sorry to you because i had make this decision
Sorry
And for those i never mention here but also hurt and cry because of me
Im sorry to you all
I wish you all can accept my apology here
I promise i will never do so anymore in my future life
From now on i must be a whole new kelvin for my whole new life

My mind

There're Hundreds Of Them Outside The Window Is Prettier Than Vincy In My Eyes....
But Non Of Them Are Beautiful Than Vincy In My Heart
And Nobody Can Ever Try To Replace Your Position In My Heart....
Love you forever my dear
Be Together Forever....

To vincy

Hope you won't blame me for treating a girl so cruel
You know i really not mean to hurt anybody else
But i just want to be loyal to you
I don't want to make you misunderstand me anything
So i must tell her my decision fast
If not later you get misunderstanding
The chance for me to be with you again will be zero
I just want to tell you that i just love you in my life until end of my life
There is no any other girl who can come to me and replace you
I will wait for you

You≠Her

I really don't what else i can tell you except sorry
I know the desicion i make is very cruel to you
I know is unfair to you
I understand how your feel
Even you say you can sacrifice to accompany me while im waiting for her
But i don' wish to use you as her replacement
Is unfair to anyone
I don't want to make her misunderstand
Since i already had bad reputation in her mind
I don't wish to increase any bad reputation in her mind
You also know i can't lose her from my life
You also know how deep i love her
Please forgive me
Please forgive me because im not your prince
Sorry
I will still love and you as a good friend
please don't ask me for more
You know i can't promise you anything else beside this
You know we only just can be good friend
No more other than this
So please calm yourself down
Don't ever ever waste any time on me this bad guy anymore
Because nomatter how hard you do also can't change my mind
Because you are you..she is she
You can't replace her in my heart and my life
I really don't mean to hurt you but since you ask for my answer
Then this is my final answer
And i will never going to change my mind anymore
Hope we are still good friend in future

Stop....

Please don't force me to do any decision anymore
I already close my heart to someone i care and love
I don't wish to have any other girl in my life anymore
I know you had wait for me long time
Im so appreciate your love and care and time
But i really don't want to hurt someone i love from 16march08
I just want to be loyal to her
I just want to have my life with her only
She will be my last girl in my life
Nomatter she still will accept me back again or not
I also won't care anymore
And im not going to accept your request
For now we are good friend
I hope we are still good friend in future
I don't want to break our friendship
Please don't pressure me anymore
I really will get crazy
I already have some problem with my mental
I really need time to recover
Please don't me why
There is no reason for me why i so love her
There is no reason for me why i so about her
She is everything in my life
She is everything in my world
I never say you are not good
You both also very good
Both also love and care me
But i just only can choose one in my life
Sorry because i had to tell you im already belongs to her
Nomatter how bad how cruel she treat me also i will be loyal to her
Sorry because i know what i say to you really make you so hurt
I know you been cry for many days
Im so regret for all this thing
Maybe i should not let you know that i already breakup
Is my wrong because make you feel you finally have chance
Sorry and sorry...
I really just love her in my life
Nobody can replace her
Hope you can understand me
Please don't cry for this anymore
Nomatter how we are still good friend
And i will treassure you this good friend
I wish you can get another better guy
Please don't wait for me while my heart already full with her
Please be happy there
Take care and all the best

Anyone who can please help me

Anyone who can please help me
Im now still waiting for someone i really love
But at the same time there is another girl care me a lot
She wish to be with me but my heart already have someone i want for my entire life
What should i do only i won't so hurt the girl
I really don't wish to hurt any girl anymore
I really don't wish any other girl cry because of me
Im so confuse now
Im sure i won't accept her since i never put down someone in my heart
I don't want to be unfair to anybody
I don't wish to hurt anybody else
I wish im the one who get hurt
Since i already hurt someone i really love so deep

Tired....

I feel so tired now
I been so tired since december
Since the day we have problem
I feel hurt and sad that moment
But i think that i can settle all the thing and back to normal after i back
But all totally different
I choose to rush back malaysia earlier than others
Since i wish to have more time with you
I know you are very lonely there
So i wish to have more time with you
You say im too over this time since i too easy fall asleep
I really don't mean it
I can't have proper sleep at home at all
Somemore my body very weak since i food poisoning in beijing
I only feel secure to sleep when im by yourside
Because im sure after i open my eye
You are still by my side
I know you blame me for this too
Im so sorry
Since 9February i more tired
Not just my body tired
But my mind
But my heart
Also feel so tired
Suddenly i feel so hopeless and useless since everything change after few word
Im so desperate at that moment
Im so down
Im so upset
I ever think to die
I try to knock my head to wall
I know im so silly and stupid
But at that moment i really can't have anymore idea than this
I know you hate me to be this
I also stop acting like this anymore
As you say
I must be brave on what had happen
Now i no more acting childish
Is time for me to be matured
So i keep find something to do
So i can at least numb my mind and my heart
So i won't think so much here
Don't worry
I now had change a lot
I know im still not consider perfecr yet
But i will still keep work hard to change myself more
I already promise you
So i will kept my promise this time
I promise not going to break my promise anymore
Because i know you still care about me
So i don't wish to hurt you anymore
I also don't like to speak out to other people
Unless those who i trust
I just have some people i really trust
You are one of them
And you are the most important one
Last time you are the most important one
Until now you are still the same
In future also will be the same because there are nobody can ever ever try to replace your seat
Now i already no more sms ,call,msn you anymore
But i will write all my thing out here
You can keep updated
Even when im not with you anymore
But im always wondering how you there
What are you doing there
Im so miss you all the moment
I miss you whole day
I miss you whole month
I miss you whole year
I miss you whole life

Promise...

I still remember what you ask me to promise
You ask me to promise you no matter how also can't drop you
Nomatter how you ask me to breakup also i can't let you go so easy
Because you say you really love me and don' wish to lose me from your life
You say you scared will regret
But im sorry because i can't hold you back
Even i can hold your body
But i can't hold you heart and your soul
I wish i can totally hold you back
Even your mother also ask me to treassure you
I really wish i can
But im so sorry
I really so hopeless and useless now since what also i can't do
Im really sorry to you
I really wish you blame or angry me
At least i will feel more better
Please don't worry
As what i told you
Sure i won't blame or angry you
After i know you
I already don't wish to know more other girls
Even know also just normal friends
I keep have some distance from them
Because i don' want make you scared and worry
I just wish to make you feel secure
Until now im still the same
Even i have lots girl friends
But i just take them as normal normal friends
No more other than this
You ask me not to online so much also i listen to you
Each time you ask me to off also i off

Help me please....

This few day i finally can sleep
But i still can't sleep well
Haiz...
I also don't why
I keep force myself to sleep well
But each time i sleep sure will get wake up
I also don't know the reason
Maybe is because of nightmare again...
I have this nightmare since a long time ago...
Until now i still can't get the solution so i won't have this nightmare anymore
It really drive me crazy
I really wish i can put down everything
Why im so useless
How hard i work also i still the same
Why i just can't be like you
Put down all the thing easily
All the memory we have
All the happy moment we have
All the enjoy moment we have
All the secret we share each other
All the promise we have to each other
There is a lot thing hold me from not put you down
Im still so miss all the moment we have since 16-03-08
Even we don't have much chance to meet other
But our heart always so close to each other
Why now i can't feel you heart near to me anymore
I now can't even hear any heart beat of you
Im so lonely....
Im so miss....

女孩应该原谅男孩的10个地方

1 如果你喜欢他就告诉他，即使他拒绝了，也不会丢面子，因为在他心里，会因为你的真情而非常非常感激你。
2 如果他喜欢你，要明确告诉他你对他的感情，喜欢就是喜欢，不喜欢就是不喜欢，千万不要怕伤害他而忧郁不决，不要让他等到最后才受到抛弃，因为男孩子的心一旦碎了就很难很难再好起来。
3 男孩子也有自己的脾气，只是因为爱你而压抑着，不要总是任性，有时他们的决定也很有道理.
4 男孩子莫名的向你发脾气，那时因为爱你，把你当成最亲，最贴心，最有安全感的人，千万不要冲他发脾气反击，静静的等着，等他消气后满怀后悔来抱你。
5 他为你准备的东西，即使再难看，再廉价，也要去珍惜，因为那里面融汇着他整晚的思绪。
6 相信他给你多么多么美好的生活，要给他鼓励，因为鼓励会让他创造奇迹。
7 不要总是打探他去哪，告诉他注意安全，你会等着他就可以。
8 不要总说~我爱你~，他会半真半笑着说你烦，但不要不说，因为有时候，他们比女孩子更需要这句。
9 他为你掉眼泪了，那么他是真的非常爱你，珍惜他的每一滴泪，不要道歉，不要安慰，握着他的手，默默的为他擦去泪滴。
10 要信任他，他爱你，就什么都不会骗你，即使真的有欺骗，也是为让你们的爱情能够永远不离不弃。

Untitle....

Please don't ever ever say thanks or sorry to me anymore
You know that i never ask for anything from you
I just wish to sacrifise my own just to make you be happy
I really ok one...
Nomatter how you say or treat me also i will never blame or angry you..
Even i feel so sad and hurt also i will be ok soon
I just wish you to be happy
I really ok...
Don't worry
So please don't say any sorry to me
I will never accept because you got your own reason for what you do
Somemore i don't blame or angry you
Why must you say sorry
If really need someone to say this word
Should be me because is me who bring you from happiness to sadness
Sorry Vincy
Don't ever ever feel any guilty to me
Because what i do also i volunteer myself
I just want to treat someone i really care and love better
I know your ex never treat you good
So i really wish to make you be happy
Wish you won't be hurt anymore
Wish you can forget all the past
Wish you won't suffer for all those past
I know i also don't treat you very good
Because i had scold and hurt you
But i really don't mean for everything
I really can't control myself when im in mad
But now is ok...
I had learn to change myself lot...
Since now i try to make myself relax and control my emotion
If really im going to be mad
I will try to take deep breathe before say or do anything
I will learn to appreciate you
I will learn to care for your feeling
I sure will prove it to you one
Just now you say maybe will going to accept him when he ask you
I really feel so upset because i don't think to lose you
Because i know after you accept him
I mostly have no more chance to be with you anymore
Not because i got no confident with myself
But i don't want you to be suffer and hurt again for both of us
Because of this you been cry alot
You know im so 'xinteng'??
I maybe not the one who care and worry you the most
But i really care and worry you
When you get hurt
When you get sick
I also will feel same with you
I don want to be involve in this 三角恋 anymore
Not because im so tired for what had happen
But is i don wan't you to get anymore hurt
I cant take you out from my heart...
Or i should say i never think or plan to take you out
Ever ever i never think so
I just wish to accompany you
I just wish to look at you
I just wish to smile at you
I just wish to help you massage
I just wish to help you dry your hair
I just wish to help you comb your hair
For now i just only can wait and see
Wait for god decide when our test will be end
But i really don't know will i can accept the fact when you accept him?
I really not sure for this
Im feel so scared
How if i cant accept this
Nomatter what is your final decision also im going to accept
I will respect what ever you do
And i will not going to blame or angry you as well
Because is you
Because you are my lovely babe
Because i care and love you
I promise will not going to hurt you anymore
I won't force you to make decision fast
But i wish you can let me know when you had make up your choice
I don't want to make you more stress because of me
Is me who ask you to change all the thing in Friendster
But after i saw all your changes
I really feel so upset
Because i feel like you already put me down
Already take me out from your heart
Maybe now really need me to give up
And don't ever ever think we will be togather anymore
But i will never take you out from my heart
I willing to keep waiting for your back
I wiling to keep care and worry you even you don't want me
Please don't ever ever ask me not to worry or care you anymore
Since the thing i can do for you already very little
I hope i still can protect you here
Even im 4000KM++ far from you but i will still try to protect you
Because my heart always so near with you
I also pray to god as what i did for you when you go for KL training
But this time i pray for your safety and happiness
I don't set for the time i pray for you
I will keep do all this for you forever ever
It just small thing for me to do
Please don't worry
I will be alright
I will be healthy
I had control my tear
I promise i won't drop any tears anymore
Promise is promise
What ever promise i had make for you also i will kept for you
Love and miss you.....

1st step i take

I been almost 7month don't exercise...
It make me so crazy when all the preassure and stress comes to me while i really don't know how to reduce it...
Make me so crazy
Make me so bad temper
Make me always lost control
How stupid im because never learn from mistake
But keep let my preassure and stress drive my emotion
All because this i had hurt someone i care and love the most..
I hate why i know all this thing so late...
But already cant do anything while everything already to late for me to say sorry to you
I know i been hurt you many many time
I know you keep forgive me again and again
Sorry because i don't care your feeling
Sorry because i never appreciate your love
You had ask me to change many times and i promise you i will going to change
But i keep ask for more time but don't think the way to reduce just think the way to control
But i know is is useless way to settle since once i don't think the way to get ride of my temper,you will still get hurt
Thanks you to forgive me so many times
Thanks you to give me so long time to change
I know why you choose to make this decision
Even it is so hurt but maybe it is the best way for you
You not deserve to get hurt and hurt by me
Don't worry..
I now start to learn to reduce my preassure and stress
Afterward i will learn to control my temper
Today i go for basketball for few hour
Even i get hurt a lot on my knee and hand
Even it is so cold outside
But i still wish to go since i know this is the best way for me
After i play,i will more relax...
At least now i already few day don't get angry
Less preassure and stress make me feel fresh
Is tired to make angry
Somemore it is going to hurt someone who worry and care me the most
I will keep work hard by this way
I believe that i will change my temper soon
Please believe me for this...
I sure can change one
Somemore i must sucess in all what you had told me before
Please wait for my return
I wish to make you be confident with me again

99 way to show my love

1. Hug her.

2. Write a love note.

3. Call her at work just to say "Hi."

4. Give her a foot massage.

5. Tell her a joke.

6. Caress her with slow gentle strokes.

7. Go for a walk with her.

8. Send her a "happy gram."

9. Admit your mistakes.

10. Say: "I love you."

11. Indulge a whim.

12. Listen to her talk about an interest of hers.

13. Be trustworthy.

14. Instead of complaining, tell her what you would prefer.

15. Look at her when you're in a discussion.

16. Send flowers.

17. Compliment something her did.

18. Offer to help.

19. Ask her to show you how to do something.

20. Call when you are going to be late..

21. Take her out to dinner.

22. Write her a poem about how special she are.

23. Cut out a cartoon she'll enjoy.

24. Ask her what she's like sexually.

25. Go shopping together.

26. Take an afternoon drive.

27. Cuddle.

28. Put your arm around her in front of others.

29. Take she out on a surprise date.

30. Do something she want to do.

31. Listen.

32. Plan a candle light dinner.

33. Look at old photos together.

34. Serve her breakfast in bed.

35. Hold hands.

36. Share sexual fantasies.

37. Do a work project together.

38. Rub their back.

39. Take a bow together.

40. Carry her photo in your wallet.

41. Go away together for a weekend holiday.

42. Kiss her.

43. Smile more when you look at she.

44. Go for a bicycle ride together.

45. Surprise her with "special" attire.

46. Plan a picnic lunch.

47. Read something together about how to have a better relationship.

48. Repeat what she say before answering.

49. Say "Good morning" first.

50. Ask if she have a few minutes first before interrupting.

51. Send her a card.

52. Surprise her with a gift when it's a non-holiday.

53. Cook her a favorite meal.

54. Try a new restaurant.

55. Ask her how they feel.

56. Let she know when you are proud of them.

57. Ask for she's opinion.

58. Turn on some romantic music.

59. Dedicate a song to her.

60. Send she a balloon bouquet.

61. Watch a sunset together.

62. Play a game together.

63. Have she teach you something she know.

64. Tell she have the night off.

65. Go to a movie she select.

66. Ask her for a hug.

67. Wear some new cologne.

68. Discuss future plans with her.

69. Ask if you can help when she look sad.

70. Ask her about hers dreams.

71. Meet her for lunch..

72. Enlarge a scenic photo of a place you've shared..

73. Give she a gift certificate for she's favorite store.

74. Tell her what you like about hers.

75. Buy she a new perfume.

76. Take she to a scenic spot.

77. Send her a gourmet gift basket.

78. Send her a joke card.

79. Let she's know when you've thought of her during the day.

80. Buy her a toy.

81. Compliment her to hers friends.

82. Bring her a thirst quenching drink.

83. Tell her when her look attractive.

84. Send her a post card.

85. Invite her to a secret rendezvous.

86. Give her a massage.

87. Take a lesson with shes.

88. Look at photos together of when you met.

89. Plan a vacation with she.

90. Listen openly to hers opposing opinion.

91. Buy her a new piece of jewelry.

92. Watch a TV show she like with shes

93. Write her a letter.

94. Listen to music with her, such as an old favorite.

95. Whisper sweet nothings in hers ear.

96. Tell she what you like that she do.

97. Give a head massage.

98. Invite her to a concert.

99. Let her know you care

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I don't know why until now i still can't control my tears....
Each time i remember back our memory
Each time i read back the letter you give me
Each time i read back message you sent me
Each time i saw our photo
Also i can't control to drop my tears again and again
I know you don't like me to be like this
But i really don't know why
Im so confuse with my feeling now
But i promise i will change myself not to be so sentimental anymore
Will be brave and man for my life
Will be brave and man for my challenge

Time for me to wake up...

Im so down for many days...
Now is time for me to wake up..
I know if i keep act like this will only make you hate me...
Sorry...
I really never imagine that we will end up like this...
I really thought that we will be togather forever ever..
I know is me who lead to this ending...
Regret and regret
Sorry and sorry
Sorry because because of my problem make both so unhappy
Regret because i never treat you good until i lose someone who so love and care me
Now i will have more time on my study...
And i will work hard to change myself
And i will work hard to control my temper
And i will work hard to be matured
Sorry because until now i still very emotional
But i promise i will change it fast
I promise not jz change for short while but is forever
I promise all this not for anyone..but is for myself
But i also do for you because i had promise you before
I know even now already too late for me to do all this changes but is ok...
I believe all this are test from god to test us...
Wish to test whether we are really love and care each other...
Wish to test will i change myself to be better guy...
Don't worry me here...
Everything will be fine...
I will be strong and tough to face my life
I will be your guardian angel here
Nomatter anything happen to you also i will care and worry
You try to speak out everything in your heart
Don't hide anymore..
Because not just suffer yourself but people who care and worry you
I know you now look for part time study...
Be good and healthy
Don make yourself too tired..
If anything need my help just let me know
You know that i will always be here for you no matter what time or what wrong
ok??
Just give both more time to think
I will prove you that Im new kelvin after i change myself
I love you forever...
Take care ya...

Love or Not Love

不要在強迫自己留在我身边，我希望妳能活的快乐。
No need to force yourself to stay by myside,just want to stay happy
不要问我为什么那么傻。
Please don't ask why im so silly
能选择要不要喜欢上一個人或爱上一個人吗？喜欢上了，爱上了，就是了。
Do we can choose to love or not love someone?When you like,love,that's it
我會一直守護著妳，因為妳是我最爱的人，我真的能为妳做任何事，不管過了多少年，我对你的心都不会改变
I will be your angel to protect you,because you are the one who i deep in love,i willing to do anything just for you,nomatter how long the time past,my heart on you will never change