I really don't know how long i can last

Thanks Joenl,Teena,Stephanie,Meimei
I know you all keep advice me to be brave and strong
Nomatter how also must keep continue with my thing
I understand but im now really tired,suffer and disappointed
I really lose my courage to keep it on
But also i know you all will angry and sad if i do really give up
But even i don't give up but also i don't know how long it can last
I really don't know what else i can do
I really don't know how strong i can be
I really don't know how long i can last